Hey, y'all. I've always sucked at doing homework, ever since primary school, sorry for that.
So, this question is quite a difficult to answer, i believe you can have many favorite songs depending in your mood, depending a lot in what you are going through, i remember i used to listen non stop to Silvio Rodriguez's Mano a mano disk for weeks, i could only listen that to the point i forced my self to listen to other things (i failed though). When i was fifteen i could not stop listening to Pink Floyd, specially The Wall, Dark side of the moon and Wish you were here.
In the past few months i've been listening to Sia's 1000 forms of fear and Hozier's namesake album. So, if i had to choose ONE song from those two albums, i would say i am totally in love with Elastic heart, i've been thinking even to tattoo that phrase on my thigh, just above the knee after i learn how to tattoo better -yes, i am learning to tattoo -. Why? Well, i've been through some tough sh*t in the past few years, fighting my depression, anxiety and so on. During this period i met someone whom i fell heads over heels with. We date for over a year and it was rough, lord was it rough. We met through therapy, which by itself is a bad starting point and we were SO different, but somehow we became so attached to each other so quickly, we would come and go all the time but we still love each other so f*cking much, but that relationship, no matter how much love we had for each other, was so unhealthy. While i write this i feel my eyes becoming glassy with tears. It's been six months since they left me, adn still it hurts so much. The reason why Elastic hart resonates with me so much is because i feel broken, i've felt broken even before we met, and during these painful years of battling my mental illness, i've am constantly surprised with how strong a person's heart can be, sometimes i feel that the pain in me is gonna reap my skin apart, sometimes i can't eat or breath and i feel my body shutting down, but still i live. I'va always run away from situations that could potentially hurt me and put me in a vulnerable place, that included caring for others, loving others. I would sabotage all of those links.
I know this is not a happy blogpost, but this is my truth.
Once again, thanks to all of you for reading, and to @MISSY and @RAMBO for the topic.
Keep fighting, keep strong.
