Left: March 2014... 100lbs
Right: October 2014... 135lbs
Vulnerability time:
During my vacation from the interwebz and some much needed time for introspection and spiritual growth- I also worked on my physical health.
Until now I haven't spoken much about my absense but since I became active again the feedback has been so positive and I feel I have reached a point in my life where fear is just an obstacle.
I was struggling with depression for a while only to escape to the florida sunshine. I started a daily meditation practice and gradually came off an anxiety medication that left me kind of crippled for years.
It led me
To begin to self medicate when the prescriptions stopped working... And my depression worsened. Now nearly seven months later I can say...
I've never been so happy and I'm am so proud of this achievement.
I have a new found confidence and can really feel the love of my friends around me . The people I have disclosed certain things to on SG have been so supportive and my heart goes out to each and everyone of you-
For who hasn't struggled at some point or another?
I truly believe with consistency and motivation- anything is possible.
I've been clean and sober for nearly seven months.
Panic attack free for two.
A stable weight for six.
I work as a chef and love my job.
I have bad days but they don't break me.
I am filled with such an overwhelming sense of gratitude to be healthy and happy again.
I am very much looking forward to shooting a new set with my healthier, curvier body and my new found confidence and joy.
To anyone who may be having a bad day- always remember nothing is permanment. No matter how bad- it will change.
It never has to break you down unless you want it to .
Sending light and love to each and everyone who reads this.
Namaste
