He has fucking ruined every good part of me. I wasted my ability to love and trust on him. Why did I ever let myself trust him?
Since I am.
Was a name given to me by the only other person in the world who has ever heard me rhyme. Was supposed to be her stage name but she gifted it to me after liking what she heard.
Things are still hard. I'm the sad girl at the bar. My mother told me today they must have written the song "Sad Eyes"...
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Was a name given to me by the only other person in the world who has ever heard me rhyme. Was supposed to be her stage name but she gifted it to me after liking what she heard.
Things are still hard. I'm the sad girl at the bar. My mother told me today they must have written the song "Sad Eyes"...
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camshaft:
I know a couple of people who've worked as escorts who say it was just as bad as you'd think it would be, if not worse. So if I had a vote (which I don't), I'd say nay.
I like the new name, though.
I like the new name, though.
lanemeyer:
Aw, thanks for the good vibes! And I love the new name! Now if you could just get your dang IM sorted out, for reals.
PS: Wick's in TWO WEEKS. Counting down.
PS: Wick's in TWO WEEKS. Counting down.
i really hate my blogs. i also hate that my computer is fried. if you've been missing me from your online life at all, that's why. it has a virus called extra antivir. spybot didn't work, neither did avast. sooo i can either pay $60 to remove it and hope all is well, save and get a computer, or just be without a computer for...
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lanemeyer:
Where's Ipanema? Is that in the south end? I think my grandmother grew up there.
wickedmonkey:
i know i'm a complete stranger and all, but i'm sending some good thoughts your way. hang in there. things will get better. :hugs: 
i'm not going to give up. it's much more complicated than that. video blogs to come soon. my fingers are tired.
thanks to everyone for their concern, i know my actions have been worrying as of late.
someday i'll get back to where i belong. x x
thanks to everyone for their concern, i know my actions have been worrying as of late.
someday i'll get back to where i belong. x x
lanemeyer:
Well, shit. I just caught up with the last few days of your life. Ugh...sorry to hear about this, but...we cry, we lament, and we press on. New times, new places, new people.
It gets better.
It gets better.
Gary broke up with me. Apparently it's supposed to save me pain and is best for me. I love learning how I'm supposed to feel. I wish every area of life was this easy.
I choose not to dwell on this. If this wasn't what he wanted (to be apart) then he wouldn't have said what he said. In the end it could have been...
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I choose not to dwell on this. If this wasn't what he wanted (to be apart) then he wouldn't have said what he said. In the end it could have been...
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camshaft:
Really sorry to hear that. I wish I had some sort of useful advice to give, but I'm in no position to offer relationship guidance. Hopefully getting drunk tomorrow takes some of the edge off, and time takes care of the rest.
xbradx:
good to know you're not lingering on all of it.
have fun being out and about on your birthday, mines also march, but i'll probably be stuck here in the middle of IN, lol.
good to know you're not lingering on all of it.
have fun being out and about on your birthday, mines also march, but i'll probably be stuck here in the middle of IN, lol.
So I'm thinking I might make a video blog. Is this a bad idea? I've deleted enough off my hard drive to where I could actually start doing that. Thoughts? Would I be boring?? Should I upload to youtube if I do it? hmmm
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camshaft:
All I can say is that if you made a video blog, I would definitely tune in.
graphxartist:
Go for it Fell, I would watch your video blog for sure.
ATTN: HAIR CUT TODAY. i'm not sure why I feel like this is such a big deal, but I have been growing my hair out since March. New look post 2pm today.
As far as the rest of my life goes I'll just smile and nod and pretend like everything is awesome, because I know that none of you want to be bored with the...
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As far as the rest of my life goes I'll just smile and nod and pretend like everything is awesome, because I know that none of you want to be bored with the...
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camshaft:
I still don't know what a bath bomb is, even though I've heard people mention them alot. Sounds like something you couldn't get through airport security.
themongrel:
Where are the pics?!
i just made the BEST hot chocolate ever. it's seriously the first sugar i've knowingly had in like...10 days.
so i'm drinking it.
when you can't be kissed and hugged like you want, chocolate is ALWAYS there. i swear it can be as good as the best orgasm. fuck my whole entire fucking life. seriously. three steps forward 3,000 back.
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graphxartist:
No way m'lady. Your amazing remember that. Really enjoyed chatting with you tonight and hope to chat again sometime. Have fun cooking tomorrow I know you were looking forward to it. Thanks again for listening to me play and for chatting.
Hope to chat again fo shizzle my lil dizzle.
Rob
Hope to chat again fo shizzle my lil dizzle.
Rob
lanemeyer:
Surely you've made up for a lot of those backwards steps by now, no?
themongrel:
I'd take the wine.
lucabrasi:
That looks like brandy too me, and i'd take it in a heartbeat.
You will also be heartbroken again more than once, probably harder than this time. Such is life.
For the meantime, stop sucking so much dick and start eating more pizza with me!