But I have a lot to say, most of which will make me emotional - I just don't have the energy to bring those emotions to surface.

I've been called 'anti-SG' since shootfest, but I'd like to make clear that I'm not anti-SG, this site gave me a new life, what I am against is bad human beings getting credit for well... being bad human beings.

And on that note, I'll leave it before I get too riled up. I shouldn't let those people cause so much negative emotion in me, but I've finally started on the road back to getting some therapy, I had my first appointment for my assessment yesterday - hopefully it will help me control my emotions and not be at their mercy anymore. I'm so done with flipping out because I can't control myself. That is not who I want to be. That is not who I am. I know who I am but I can't be that person all the time because my body hates me. I dunno. I need to stop rambling.

I'd post images but I need to breathe. Find me on instagram and other places also @felissuicide

And no matter what anyone else says, I love you guys. You've made me the person I am and helped me discover who I aspire to be.

SG, thank you. <3 @sean @missy