feeleasy

I feel like shit after sayin "see ya, call me" and "well, o.k., call me tomorrow" and such stuff a few times a day. 'Cause I feel like abandoned or smth. I have nothing to do. At all.

I feel like shit when I see family photos on walls of my friends' houses and when I know that their families often go somewhere together and stuff like that. 'Cause my family still like exists only 'cause there's to much torture in the process of getting rid of each other. Don't tell me it's teenage stuff, no offense but I know better believe me.

I want summer already. And I want a dog. And a cat. And to have a nice girl near me. And of course none of this will happen, except summer in a few months.

I am optimistic I see good stuff everywhere (hard to believe after reading this moaning, huh?) but sometimes when I compare my life with other people's life I feel that my life is shit. I'm lazy I spend like 80% of my time at home and I can't think of anything to do that will suit me.

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phew, i think i mentioned almost all. it's easier when you express all this stuff and not just keep it inside.