So confused today. Had a great weekend with Eloika, but still she won't talk to me. In general ya, just not about us or her own feelings. While she was in Seattle we were suppose to think about what each of us wants and needs. I wrote it all down so I could stay focused, five pages front and back. Nothing from her just WOW that is alot! Just really confused, happy and sad at the same time. Going to go for long bike ride today, maybe to the ocean.(6 miles) 