Well i did it i finally fucked up beyond repair......... she drove me to the edge and i let my hand fly........ whether she deserved it or not i feel bad because i hurt her .... but now she is closer to him than ever before. i gave her closure with a slap across the face....... a hard slap. it felt good at first of course but of course i felt i went to far.... but its what she needed..... i cant keep running back to her but i always will..... i knew if i made her fear me she would never talk to me and then i couldnt run back.....to drive her away because i loved her. it worked now i will suffer forever for that and my hand will scorch in hate 
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the_deacon:
We often act subconsciously....without a second thought...knowing full well what the ultimate response will be regardless of whether we want that or not...somehow of mind chooses for us and the decision is made! It hurts...
fearie:
oh i thought bout it a year in advance