fearie

i think i am finally starting to hate... its just becomeing so hard to not tell her how i feel....why do i even bother .. why dont i hate her already... why do i keep trying.... oh thats right im in love.....

here is a peom i wrote a while ago...

A beautiful storm,

Wake to an early chirp and watch the darkness lose yet another battle to the sun...
Thinking to myself as the clocks age my skin, "what will todays mystery bring me..."
As the storm on my day rolls in I begin to lose hope of the beautiful light that resurrected me from the death of my dreams...
The storm brought by the winds of breath from those who stand against me. 100 mph screams that destroyed my self esteem. Rolling thunder that deafens me, yelling curses at my soul. Flashes of lightning take my sight with the illumination of my flaws...
And as the floods drown my heart in sorrow, I am reluctant to seethe dark storm that has engulfed my day.
But I continue on... as seconds transform into eons in this typhoon of terror...
Forced from happiness and driven by despair I come to a stop...

I cannot see her but I hear her voice through her presence...
Though still blind her figure displays a silhouette in the rain drops. So I move closer to this feeling of hope and shelter from this evil...
The rain turns this silhouette into an amazing display of beauty.

Though blind, I see her
Though deaf, I hear her
Though trapped in despair, I reach for her
And hope she saves me from the storm.


--For Madison--