fdnymedic

it was 5 years ago today
i remember it like it was yesterday
there is not a day that goes by that i dont think about that day and about you.
i was crashing on your couch...i woke up in the morning without a clue, i was not expecting to ever see what i saw....
i woke up early...i opened your door to your room...and i stopped at the doorway....frozen..in shock....there i see your lifeless body facing me..feet just inches off the ground....the image so vivid in my mind to this day....this is not true..it cant be...your body stiff....i cut you down and there you lay on the floor just as still and lifeless as when your were suspended off the ground....the night before i hear noises from your room....i think about what i heard and now ofcourse i know what those noises were...i was 10 feet from you with an unlocked door between us and still i didnt know.
i miss you more than i ever thought possible....you were not only my brother, but you were my best friend.
i love you and i will see you again soon. i promise.