fdnymedic

ok im back in nyc.........had a great time in sf....evil and her girl royal are off the hook....narcissus was mad cool...we had a good time....played phone tag alot with coco but got to hang with her for a bit.... ...but the highlight was tahoe and santa rosa....spending three days with jason_gpk 's sister felicia and her little girl ellarose..she is adorable. i love...
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im leaving for the airport in one hour and ill be in sf at 11am local time!!!!!
i just spent the last 5 hours talking on the phone with someone that makes me happier than i can ever remember being.
ill see you sat. felicia

got my neck tattooed today...didnt have enough time to get everything i wanted but it looks great so far....ill post a pic soon....its a skull..total punk rock huh? i want to put some hot rod flames behind it covering the rest of my neck so that will be next time
ill be in sf friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i leave you with this.....

i know your antiseptic
your...
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people suck

*but the good news is one week ago i was contacted by someone i would often think about and have been very happy ever since!

since i have not been working and this whole kicking heroin thing took effect...i have been bored out of my mind and just spending money...im glad im still getting paid from work or id be in alot of trouble....so im getting tattooed on monday hotrod flames on my neck-back and both sides....oh they gonna love me when i go back to work!

anyone heard the new descendents? i got it a few days ago...i like it....
as you can see im learning to use my new camera....more to come.

avoid the mirror lest i break it.
with the stone that serves as my heart. accept this pretty package named friend. except that it entails love. not so attractive anymore. accept this pretty package named friend. except it entails love. its never as pretty as it seems and now it never was at all. no it never was. all i asked was to be important....
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got these cool new vans in the mail ...they are the sk8 high top with skulls on them..
other then that....still not back at work
maybe in another week or two..hopefully.
listening to alittle x-ray spex today

another sleepless night....my insurance is not making it easy for me to start my rehab..but i am doing everything i can to make it happen...i got a call from my friend who brought me to get detoxed....no matter how discouraged i get with this whole thing..talking to her a few minutes gets me motivated again to do the right thing....i will be very very honest...
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shai hulud rocks!
that is all

well its friday one week since i last used....i kinda got sleep last night for the first time...woooo hooooooooo for getting better...but psycologically it still sucks...well anyway....happy for good things happening to good people...youall know who you are...and for those that arent having the best of luck at the moment....your in my thoughts.

almost six days since i last used and i still feel like shit...i cant sleep...i am on edge...and all i think about is using....i want to thank everyone who expressed their support...both on here and in RL.