faye

I need to get my priorities straight.

Tonight proved that.

This past week sucked. Four major things happened and I feel like my head is on backwards as a result.

Today I couldnt stop thinking of you. I kept opening msn, checking to see if you were there, then closing it again. Wanting to talk to you, not knowing what to say, trying to have even the slightest bit of will power and stay true to our break. I know its what you need, its understandable. I justhate not talking to you. I hate not knowing how you are, what youre up toI hate not having the feeling that youre there.

However, tonight when I actually get the chance to tell you that, of coursebecause Im me and Im a fucking retard I blurt out something else first. For no reason other than the fact that my foot is constantly in my mouth whenever I speak to you. I always say the wrong thing at the wrong time or I say nothing at all when I should be speaking up.

Just know that I miss you. Know that I never stop thinking of you. I wonder what youre doing and where you are. I constantly hope that youre having fun no matter what. And...I never stop wishing that I was there, or you were here and that I could come home to you every night. (Too much? Probably....but if it is it will just further demonstrate the whole foot in mouth thing I have going on.)

Despite everything weve gone though, I never stop wanting you.

Have a great weekend, with no rain (crosses fingers) so you can ride, and grill and be outside. Enjoy the game with your friends on Sunday.