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Well, hello, SG land! I feel like it has been a long time since I have really participated in any of groups, I've just been lurking around in my spare time (which I haven't had much of). But I'll be around plenty the next week or so, while I recover from my terrible head/chest cold D: God, I hate being sick. It doesn't help that Brian and I have had a ton of stuff to do the last few days, so there's been no time for rest. Also, it's really hard to sleep! Either I can't sleep because I can't breathe very well, or if I'm not stuffed up, my nasal passages are all dry and tender so I have to breathe through my mouth anyways. I will be so relieved to not have to breathe heavily/creepily through my mouth like a special ed kid anymore, I'm telling you what.

As soon as I get better, I'm going to start jogging, as I finally have no excuses not to (I bought running shoes and pants, and a friend got me a zip up sweater with headphones attached so I don't get bored). There's a Nike campus right next to our house with running trails all the way around I can't wait to start being more active and get my energy back, as well as my confidence. Shopping yesterday for clothes was an absolute nightmare and showed me just how far I still have to go accepting myself. I want to get to a point where I can keep a calm, level head when things don't fit me, and not just immediately start bashing myself and how ugly/out of shape/unhealthy my body is. I think a light weekly running routine will help with that.

I also really need to find a job the second I am better :o My big dilemma is whether I will/can stop smoking mary jane long enough, because a large percentage of jobs drug test, especially entry level jobs, it seems. Anyone know what corporations do and don't test, or have any other job finding advice for me, feel more than free to offer up your wisdom in the comments section below. Believe me, I need all the help I can get. Also, any knowledge on how to quickly flush one's system would be appreciated. Due to my mental issues, I would like to cut down on mary jane as little possible while still succeeding in getting a job. The problem is that it's usually my depression that deprives me of motivation, and is the reason I don't have a job yet. But Honestly, I can't keep playing around, Brian needs my help monetarily. So I guess that leaves good old nine to five jobs, because I can't find any alternative solutions where I could stay home. It's kind of a shitty circle

Haven't taken new pictures in ages, I know, I'm sorry :o But, I am getting my hair cut this weekend for the first time in seven months, so maybe I'll set aside some time for a mini webcam set one of these evenings Just to share with you guys. For now, I'll just dump a bunch of sexy/funny pictures on you.

There'd be way more pointless bullshit in that spoiler if my fiance were nagging me to get up and do YET MORE STUFF. Thought I had time to type a blog, only had time for part of one. Well, fuck it. Ask me questions, tell me what you think, post random compliments to make me feel all warm and fuzzy, whatever you wanna do. Talk to you all later!

~Curio