I know I just did a blog Monday, but who knows, maybe I'm becoming an avid blogger. Or maybe I just have some things to get off my chest. Some important, some not.
I decided today to be patient and wait awhile before pursuing pink-hood (yes, I giggled a little, too). This is for a few reasons. First of all, tbph, I'm still a noob at this site. I've only been here for about four months, which is nothing compared to a lot of the other members. I'd like to spend some time getting involved with the community here (as well as slowly learning how everything works. I only today discovered the wonders of the MYSG button -__-). Another reason is that SG doesn't seem to be all that stable of a place to invest time and money in at the moment, what with all the civil unrest, for lack of a better term. I've seen and read and heard about a lot of drama lately concerning staff, Hopefuls, Hopeful selection, Set of the Day choices, anything you can imagine. I don't know of course what's true and what isn't, I'm not privy to such information. But there's talk of a lot of changes coming to SG, and I'd like to see if the site stays stable and successful for the long term. For those of you who ogle my pictures/read my blog/ acknowledge my existence, don't worry. I'll still be uploading practice sets for ideas and critique, and I'll still be updating my blog to let my friends here know what's going on in my life. Also, if anyone is displeased/curious/has something to say about what I've said above, don't start it on my comments. Inbox me, if you must.
So, I've finally manned up and picked between the dozens of ideas I have floating around in my brain for my first tattoo. I have the important part figured out, the text. It will say "Love is not a lie". My fiancee, when we have the money, wants to get the same words tattooed on himself somewhere because the saying is very meaningful for both our love lives leading up to meeting each other, as well as our relationship in general. If anyone has any suggestions for style/font/embellishments or design, I'd love to hear them. I'd like to somehow incorporate pink roses into it, because that was what was in the very first bouquet of flowers he ever brought me. Cheesy, I know, but I loved them. I even took a damn picture of them ^^ What would be even more super cool is if any of you are tattoo designers or just really good artists, if you'd post/send me your ideas.
After I get all that fun shit figured out, all I have to do is wait until I have the money.
Last of all, I don't mean to sound new agey, but I'd like to turn my life around. Do an almost complete overhaul. One of the things I'd really like to change more than anything is my almost solitary existence. I'm not dumb; I know that the fact that the only people I ever have a deep conversation with are my fiancee and my mother is at least half my fault; I live in my head a lot and as a result, I don't make friends. I'm mainly aiming for internet buddies because I don't exactly live in a place that lends itself to having cultured, interesting patrons. I live in a ten thousand person ranching town -__- it blows. I'd also like to find more motivation in myself. To get back on track doing yoga, to take better care of myself, and to just generally live. I hate having no energy, no get up and go. I know part of the reason is the malaise my depression causes, but if I try hard enough, I should be able to at least improve on that. I hope. Because I'm normally a very active, ambitious person. And sitting around all the time makes me feel empty inside. Emo, but true.
Okay, I think that's enough rambling for tonight. I think the drop down bar for categories should have an "Incoherent Babbling" option. It'd be on every blog of mine
I'm going to start posting a link to whatever song is my favorite that day to wrap up my blogs. I like it. You should click it and see if you do, too
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2AkxEuyRPMg&ob=av2n"_blank">Ghostflowers - Otep</a>
I decided today to be patient and wait awhile before pursuing pink-hood (yes, I giggled a little, too). This is for a few reasons. First of all, tbph, I'm still a noob at this site. I've only been here for about four months, which is nothing compared to a lot of the other members. I'd like to spend some time getting involved with the community here (as well as slowly learning how everything works. I only today discovered the wonders of the MYSG button -__-). Another reason is that SG doesn't seem to be all that stable of a place to invest time and money in at the moment, what with all the civil unrest, for lack of a better term. I've seen and read and heard about a lot of drama lately concerning staff, Hopefuls, Hopeful selection, Set of the Day choices, anything you can imagine. I don't know of course what's true and what isn't, I'm not privy to such information. But there's talk of a lot of changes coming to SG, and I'd like to see if the site stays stable and successful for the long term. For those of you who ogle my pictures/read my blog/ acknowledge my existence, don't worry. I'll still be uploading practice sets for ideas and critique, and I'll still be updating my blog to let my friends here know what's going on in my life. Also, if anyone is displeased/curious/has something to say about what I've said above, don't start it on my comments. Inbox me, if you must.
So, I've finally manned up and picked between the dozens of ideas I have floating around in my brain for my first tattoo. I have the important part figured out, the text. It will say "Love is not a lie". My fiancee, when we have the money, wants to get the same words tattooed on himself somewhere because the saying is very meaningful for both our love lives leading up to meeting each other, as well as our relationship in general. If anyone has any suggestions for style/font/embellishments or design, I'd love to hear them. I'd like to somehow incorporate pink roses into it, because that was what was in the very first bouquet of flowers he ever brought me. Cheesy, I know, but I loved them. I even took a damn picture of them ^^ What would be even more super cool is if any of you are tattoo designers or just really good artists, if you'd post/send me your ideas.
After I get all that fun shit figured out, all I have to do is wait until I have the money.
Last of all, I don't mean to sound new agey, but I'd like to turn my life around. Do an almost complete overhaul. One of the things I'd really like to change more than anything is my almost solitary existence. I'm not dumb; I know that the fact that the only people I ever have a deep conversation with are my fiancee and my mother is at least half my fault; I live in my head a lot and as a result, I don't make friends. I'm mainly aiming for internet buddies because I don't exactly live in a place that lends itself to having cultured, interesting patrons. I live in a ten thousand person ranching town -__- it blows. I'd also like to find more motivation in myself. To get back on track doing yoga, to take better care of myself, and to just generally live. I hate having no energy, no get up and go. I know part of the reason is the malaise my depression causes, but if I try hard enough, I should be able to at least improve on that. I hope. Because I'm normally a very active, ambitious person. And sitting around all the time makes me feel empty inside. Emo, but true.
Okay, I think that's enough rambling for tonight. I think the drop down bar for categories should have an "Incoherent Babbling" option. It'd be on every blog of mine
I'm going to start posting a link to whatever song is my favorite that day to wrap up my blogs. I like it. You should click it and see if you do, too
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2AkxEuyRPMg&ob=av2n"_blank">Ghostflowers - Otep</a>
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It should be genuinely curative (since it works on nicotenic/acetycholinergenic receptors as an agonist - thus entirely defeating nicotene's whole gist.)
(zyban is the anti smoking stuff but I figure if you are going to be on something for anxiety disorder anyway, it's generally well tolerated - well wellbutrin is... unless you have an underlying seizure condition :x )
A very close friend overdosed on common over the counters in my bedroom.
Nowadays it's hard to talk me into an Advil.