fatmike73

Ok, Tuesday afternoon and still a little hung over. Wierd night. Lots of Absinth, Jack Daniels, not to mention other things that tend to get the authorities all in a tizzy. Gotta go to work soon and I'm completely dreading it. Work has become so full of drama lately. I think maybe I should slow down. i've been drinking absinthe nearly every night for the...
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Happiness can be bought for a little more than free. But am i really happy? I think not. There is always an undercurrent of unhappiness. The pain is always there. I try to push it away, hide in the bottom of a bottle absinthe, at the end of a razor blade. Still the pain always comes back. I should be happy. Pain is relative, and...
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Everything is beginning to take on a green hue. I really think I'm going to hell. Right now my family is in church praying to the absentee landlord while sit here fucked up on absinthe. For some reason The Decline is playing. I'm beginning to think my WinAmp knows when i'm fucked up and plays this on purpose. My mom woulsd say i have the...
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I'm really beginning to think i must be boring as hell. I get almost no comments. I'm beginning to think no one actually reads this. Maybe I'm just cranky because I've been up for so long but really, i've got a shitload of entries now,and still i can count the comments I get on one hand.

What a night. Everything started out cool. I got to make dinner for my favorite person and my roommates girlfriend. I love cooking for people i care about it. It's such a change. But 20 minutes into my night I had to fire one of my best cooks because she had an open conainer of alcohol in the restaurant. I can't wait until next month....
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I really don't get people. My roomate's birthday was today. He invited most of his friends. This has been planned for awhile now. And yet people still blew him off. And not for important shit like "hey man my mom is in the hospital". Just to do stupid shit that could have been done any other day. i just don't get it.

I'm beginning to see why Van Gogh liked this stuff. Definately gets the creative juices flowin. You begin to see the interconnectedness of everything. Shit hard to type. Gotta write this down though. No visuals as yet to report. Feeling kinda groovy though. Did I just say groovy? Bitter as hell kinda like life. Intoxicating as hell kinda like love. They never shoulda outlawed this...
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If I'm so wonderful then why am I so misunderstood? Everybody has a reason for it except me.

I'm beginning to worry about my roomates. In the past 2 weeks we have bought around $250 in alcohol. I have drank maybe $20 worth, others have drank maybe $50 worth, And there is maybe $30 worth left. So between 2 people they have consumed about $150 worth of alcohol. Just last night they killed a handle of vodka I just bought two days ago....
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I don't understand people.