fatherklyde

"Wish i were a little bit taller,
Wish i were a baller,
Wish i had a girl,
if i did i would call her"
it's so easy sometimes to lose yourself, with all the excessive stimuli runnun around my brain freezes up like an overworked computer, and rather than making those strange beeping sounds i just cry. I have had a vision of my own limitless potential, no i am not bragging i think we all have limitless potential, but i have been blessed/cursed in seeing my own, i have had a glimpse of what i call an Eternal Perspective and i am lost in it. I have no idea how to reach any of this and the best i can do is struggle to not give up in the middle, i want so much for myself and those i love (not to mention i want it now) and yet i lose track of time worrying about the things i have already screwed up or things i can not change, it is easy to diagnose the problem but this has not given me a cure or a game plan. why can't i just enjoy the present moment? why can't i feel like the present moment is enjoying me? Time and i have no love for each other and it shows sometimes. I guess this is just another on of those times.