not dreading having to go to work is something i am currently enjoying. after three agonizing weeks of miserable train rides to blackbird i finally feel a sense of self when i'm riding the rails into the city. no name on a resume can beat that shit.

it was the only time in my career i actually considered just not showing up. "well they screw me everyday, i don't want to be there, so screw them" that's what i thought almost every morning, and had my old boss not set up the interview maybe i would've done it . . . but probably not, i have too much pride in myself as a cook to do that shit.

but i like this job and i really feel like everyone i cook with wants this place to get to the level the chef and sous chefs want it to be. i do have some issues with it, but nothing i can't work passed and nothing that diminishes my overall experience. if it continues to go well, i might actually be able to move out of my parent's house before my 30th birthday in march . . . god i hope so. and if i move into the city and like it, and still like the job, then maybe i won't move back to colorado.