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chef called me hickie all night.
everyone spent all day laughing, many were surprised, but mostly people were impressed with how well she got me. i have to say i'm pretty embarressed with the whole situation, but i took it in stride. i let everyone take their shots and after a while it wasn't that big of a deal. i'm icing the shit out of my neck to try and help the bruises heal faster.

tomorrow erika will be at work and i'm trying not to worry about it. she's a great woman that i was trying to date, but she's resisted up to this point. not that she's not interested as she's shown at some points. needless to say its pretty confusing sometimes. after like 3 months of this i'm feeling ready to stop trying to date her and just let the ball be in her court. so really i have no reason to really care what she'll think of the disgusting marks on my neck, but i can't help worrying that she's going to be pissed/hurt??? i've decided it'll only be an issue if she brings it up, otherwise i'm just going to let it lie.

i'm still a little disappointed in myself for letting all this happen, but at the same time it was something that doesn't happen often anymore so fuck it. i made out with a hot girl and she bit the shit out of my neck. oh well.