farrah

Change is Bad

keep spinning in this moment of perpetual transition you write off as life
continue using people as support
convincing them you care
don't ever stop running from your past and dodging your future
bouncing from one empty relationship to another
just to fill the hollowness that lies inches below the surface

and as you spin

don't forget to burn your bridges with the ones who really care
the ones who try to pull you from the vortex
because they are the dangerous ones
who threaten your ways and challenge your soul
to recognize the potential you don't want to acknowledge
because to see it would just remind you
of everything you've ever abandoned over the years
of everything you could've been but were too petrified to actually become

and as you spin

drink away those dreams because it's easier to stumble
around the revolving door of your youth in a dizzy haze
than to actually enter your adulthood and take on some responsibility
to gain some credibility and accountability for your actions

and as you fall

farther away from yourself
erase the memories of all those who tried to touch you
all the causalities lost in the futile missions of rescue
because in this battle
your biggest enemy threat is your own self-doubt
and as tempting a position as you make it sound
with your promises of change
and your declarations of commitment

I'm sorry

But it is not my job to save you