farewellnote

I wanted to make her happy
But time wouldn't permit
Now that task lies with another
And it's eating me alive inside
My arms were made for her
Our eyes of one singular mold
But the time, she didn't have
The greatest disappointment of all
I read her letters from before
"After even one day without you"
But things have a habit of changing
And the distance grew to overwhelm
There's no metaphor to convey
No clever alliteration to get this across
I loved her, I realize only now
Conveniently after the moment has passed

The wall is strangely fascinating
Like some key to the ultimate lock
Even to write these words
Takes all the effort I don't have.
Sun burned and sleep deprived
I sit here on my apathy and stare
An unknown drumbeat looping through my mind
I don't even care what time it is
I just want that elusive second chance
I would do everything in my power
But by the time the initiative took hold
The door had closed and the bolt had locked
Take the wind out of my sails
Let the air out of my soul
Watch myself lay here motionless
Just staring at the wall, feeling so...

deflated.