fantasticaaron

Ok, so here's the deal. After about a month of knowing this has been coming, my dad goes under the knife on Wednesday. I'm real fucking scared. My life has become nothing more than a cycle of me waking up, doing whatever makes the time pass, then drinking myself out of/further into my depression and fear and hatred of things around me, even though I might love some of them. I've shut off everything. I don't care. Really. I've managed to alienate almost everyone around me, and I honestly don't give a shit. I almost hope I get my ass kicked out of this town, because I don't think anyone here could give a fuck about anything anyways, it's just a big cooler than thou fucking orgy. since i'm not cool, I factor into the plans never, so I'm not welcome. Anyways, i've rambeled on long enough...maybe too long. I'm a miserable bastard, and I might speak the contrary, but I love all you guys, and I just hope your all doing ok....If i'm not around a lot, or am a miserable bastard, or MORE of a miserable bastard, I'm sorry in advance, but remember this......