fandango63

there's a lot of freedom at the "bottom." i wouldn't trade it for the world, except the lonliness is eating at me a little. i know that there's a little slice of salvation in knowing that those that stuck around for the bottom are the ones that will be there for the "top" and not fuck me over.

i've been dreaming again. not nightmares. it's been five years since i've had dreams that weren't nightmares. it's so nice to not fear sleep anymore.

i have even cracked some smiles lately.