famke

Hey guys, well i've really been thinking hard about what to do with my life i need to do something thats going to have a meaning ya know i mean i do lots of helping with animal charitys, but i got the chance to go and do some in africa for 6 months maybe more if im lucky i think if i can take my family i should go and do it even though im so scared. I just dont know what to do i dont know where my life is heading but where ever its going i know it involves animals. Have you ever just wanted to do something and just been so fucking scared maybe i should just go and get a job at the zoo even though i dont agree with them, i could look after the animals and show them lots of love. I look at my animals and see how their looked after well their bloody spoilt to be fair and i just want to show the rest of them that they can have the same i mean look at diane fossey she was an amazing woman not that i could ever do anything like she did, i've also got to consider my children and their future. I always thought as i was growing up i was just going to be like eddie and patsy from ab fab mind you i was for along time but as much as i hate it we all have to grow up not that my kids think of me as an adult im more like their sister. Well im on my own today kids with grandma so i gonna take a val to knock myself out then when i return to the living will be back to normal, sorry about the moan again dont know whats wrong with me lately, not usually like this promise just at a cross road i think, lots of love