falselight

Holy shit...I woke up in a BADDDddddddd mood

I came into work, snapped at my co-workers and now I feel really bad.

I just hate how I have this negative view on life. Sometimes I'm happy but for the most part I am sad, lonely, and negative! I have things to be thankful for but I fail to recongize them.

I was honestly thinking on the drive into work today...that i would be alright with me dying in a car crash! How morbid is that?? It wasn't like I was planning on driving my car into a tree or anything like that but I guess I was fantasizing about another car crashing into me? If that makes any sense...

I look ahead in life and all I see are obstacles...obstacles that I don't want to deal with.

I should have stayed in bed.

On a brighter note, its a 4 day work week. Thank god for that.