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it's the day of the radio show. it's a sunday morning, usually i went out the night before, i'm running on 2-4 hours of sleep. i'm drunk, i'm hungover, or both.


my girlfriend usually stays in bed, naked albeit, i finish the show, i usually wake her up and then we fuck for a bit, and go back to sleep for a few hours. i'm usually peachy but...

i caught myself thinking... "does she even really care?"

i mean... i know she's not into the music i'm into, that IS what i wanted... right...? not sure anymore.

after last week of sweating me to see her do something important to her that she worked hard and rehearsed for, isn't there supposed to be some kind of give and take? you know? hey this is important to you, i'll support you, you support me and all that shit?

i'd actually be content if she woke up one of these times, poked her head in the studio and said "ohayo willchan" kissed me on the cheek then took her naked ass back to sleep. i mean, it's like, jeez bitch acknowledge that i'm doing something. i know she doesn't listen to any of my mixes, probably don't even like it it, and hell, in the months we've been dating she's only seen me play once (in december, and i've had about 10 or 11 gigs in between all that).

maybe i have more growing to do, but i hope she realizes that i'm the type of guy that probably needs to be watched.