fallonlee

starting from scratch. told just about everyone i know to fuck off. will fix me at my own pace, at my own time. don't need anymore helpful lectures.

i'm going to focus on my daughter only now. everyone else can fuck off and die.
i mean that in the most bitter way possible.

shit!

fuck it !
time to find out what it takes.
pretty sure i've got it.
or else can find it in my favorite jeans.

everything is upside down.
think i'll leave it that way for awhile.
it's a nice change of pace

need so slow down big time.
only remember half of last night.
what i remember isn't good

I HATE THIS.
A PER FECT CHEMICAL CLEAN WORLD.
I CHOSE TO NOT ATTEND.
I HATE THIS

10 records everyone should have.
1. the ramones-road to ruin
2.the cramps-off the bone
3. the cure-pornography
4.johnny thunders&the heartbreakers-l.am.f.
5.the dead boys-young,loud,and snotty
6.the pixies-surfer rosa
7.tom waits-small change
8.x-ray spex-germfree adolescents
9.alice donut-mule
10.the replacements-let it be

i do not understand this place.
i am not supposed to be here.

first i want to thank all my sg friends for the nice comments,and e-mails this week. it helped alot.

just found out that i'll have to work 70 to 80 hours a week, or find a new job. the bad thing about working under the table is they can fire you just like that.what's a boy to do?

i'm going in for a double today,but...
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don't want to go on and on about how sad i am again.
will do the healthy, normal thing and drink too much.
it's a family tradition.

this is how i fall apart.
in little pieces.
under the gaze.
the heartless stare.
of these brick mortar buildings i shook just a few years ago.
this is how i fall apart.
over well worn telephone lines.
half in new funeral tuxedos.
wedding invations in last years mailbox.
this is how i fall apart.
so quitely.
gentle.
not meaning to disturb.
this is how...
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my poor little dog lonnie is sick. she had a siezure friday morning. scared the shit out of me.
took her to the vet ($400.00) and he says it's a brain tumor. gave me pills she has to take three times a day.
the pills will probably only let her have a good summer,and then i'll have to start thinking about putting her to sleep....
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