have decided to take on a second job. i'm going to need major amounts of cash to sue for custody of my daughter. i figure it will be cold soon anyway so why be that sad about it ? plus, you've got to do what you've got to do.they are both pretty slack jobs too. i just won't have any days off but sunday after...
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life is a test. how much can you you take? what will you fight for? i dumped out all the booze, and pills. it's time to fight for the right things. three days sober, and fighting. for the right thing. not a girl. not my pride. my daughter.the best thing.
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rosemarie:
Oh, I am so glad. You have my support and my respect, always.
RoseMarie
RoseMarie
hellynn:
awww. goodluck
everything is just such a fucking mess right now.
my ex has decided that helping rinse my four year old daughters hair in the bath tub is child abuse. she's suing for full custody. i hate this world, and want to die.
will not be here much longer for the few people who care. i do not refer to this earth, but to this site.
all wore out, and do not feel the need to bleed in public.
i hate all this modern shit anyway. it just makes our humanity more sterile.
fuck it!!
there is no ghost as lonely as our own america on the world...
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all wore out, and do not feel the need to bleed in public.
i hate all this modern shit anyway. it just makes our humanity more sterile.
fuck it!!
there is no ghost as lonely as our own america on the world...
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rosemarie:
At least send me a photo so I can place your face with all if the poems.
...please
...please
bankerboy:
Fare thee well.
bb
bb

even on the phone....
well even then her kiss beats yours
well even then her kiss beats yours
rosemarie:
Do you ever use AIM? I am such a nerd that I just figured it out, but we should get on at the same time sometime.
I miss you, of course.
I miss you, of course.
bankerboy:
How are you?
bb
bb

this lovely girl has been driving me nuts all summer. almost breaking me. i've screamed at her. i've held her in my arms. i even asked her to marry me. now that she's back at school i don't know what to do with myself. i miss the sweet torture of being with her already. it's only been one day.how will i make it through ?

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hellynn:
well for starters I would RUN. yea thats right. get away as soon as possible. My ex put up wit a lot of shit and now that we're not together Im off doing my own thing and hes got a broken heart (or so he tells me). I feel bad but if he let me do it to him so it was kind of like doing it to himself. no?
rosemarie:
I love you. Does that help?

your kiss
an accident
tragicly sweet
completely forgetable
my love
sickly
sweet
compliant
incidental
drunk
lost
well.......
drunk
an accident
tragicly sweet
completely forgetable
my love
sickly
sweet
compliant
incidental

drunk
lost
well.......
drunk
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rosemarie:
I miss you. How are you, honey? Are the halves fusing together yet?
they will
they will
Ah, ain't love sweet?
they will
they will
Ah, ain't love sweet?

still alive
damn!
damn!
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rosemarie:
I sent you an e-mail. I send you a kiss.
Yours, as always, RoseMarie
Yours, as always, RoseMarie
rosemarie:
Sometimes your e-mails scare me. Hang in there for your daughter and me. We love you and need you around.

I
CHOSE
TO
STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!
CHOSE
TO
STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!
bankerboy:
Me too, to stop making sense. Fuck, what a day!
Carry on my wayward son.
bb

Carry on my wayward son.
bb

rosemarie:
Hi Fallonlee.
Very sleepy but thinking of you.
I miss our talks and poems. Frantically working and very very busy, but still think of you often and hope that things are good where you are. I will write you an e-mail soon.
Your friend always,
M.
Very sleepy but thinking of you.
I miss our talks and poems. Frantically working and very very busy, but still think of you often and hope that things are good where you are. I will write you an e-mail soon.
Your friend always,
M.
see me?
see me fall?
see me?
see me fall?
see me?
bankerboy:
You fell on me, so yes, I do see you. Fuck, what a life!
bb
bb

the sky grew soft.
her kiss was always thunder.
an empty promise.
an abortion miracle.
a ashtray regret.
her kiss was always thunder.
an empty promise.
an abortion miracle.
a ashtray regret.
bankerboy:
When I was back there in seminary school
There was a person there
Who put forth the proposition
That you can petition the Lord with prayer
Petition the lord with prayer
Petition the lord with prayer
You cannot petition the lord with prayer!
Can you give me sanctuary
I must find a place to hide
A place for me to hide
Can you find me soft asylum
I can't make it anymore
The Man is at the door
Peppermint, miniskirts, chocolate candy
Champion sax and a girl named Sandy
There's only four ways to get unraveled
One is to sleep and the other is travel, da da
One is a bandit up in the hills
One is to love your neighbor 'till
His wife gets home
Catacombs
Nursery bones
Winter women
Growing stones
Carrying babies
To the river
Streets and shoes
Avenues
Leather riders
Selling news
The monk bought lunch
Ha ha, he bought a little
Yes, he did
Woo!
This is the best part of the trip
This is the trip, the best part
I really like
What'd he say?
Yeah!
Yeah, right!
Pretty good, huh
Huh!
Yeah, I'm proud to be a part of this number
Successful hills are here to stay
Everything must be this way
Gentle streets where people play
Welcome to the Soft Parade
All our lives we sweat and save
Building for a shallow grave
Must be something else we say
Somehow to defend this place
Everything must be this way
Everything must be this way, yeah
The Soft Parade has now begun
Listen to the engines hum
People out to have some fun
A cobra on my left
Leopard on my right, yeah
The deer woman in a silk dress
Girls with beads around their necks
Kiss the hunter of the green vest
Who has wrestled before
With lions in the night
Out of sight!
The lights are getting brighter
The radio is moaning
Calling to the dogs
There are still a few animals
Left out in the yard
But it's getting harder
To describe sailors
To the underfed
Tropic corridor
Tropic treasure
What got us this far
To this mild equator?
We need someone or something new
Something else to get us through, yeah, c'mon
Callin' on the dogs
Callin' on the dogs
Oh, it's gettin' harder
Callin' on the dogs
Callin' in the dogs
Callin' all the dogs
Callin' on the gods
You gotta meet me
Too late, baby
Slay a few animals
At the crossroads
Too late
All in the yard
But it's gettin' harder
By the crossroads
You gotta meet me
Oh, we're goin', we're goin great
At the edge of town
Tropic corridor
Tropic treasure
Havin' a good time
Got to come along
What got us this far
To this mild equator?
Outskirts of the city
You and I
We need someone new
Somethin' new
Somethin' else to get us through
Better bring your gun
Better bring your gun
Tropic corridor
Tropic treasure
We're gonna ride and have some fun
When all else fails
We can whip the horse's eyes
And make them sleep
And cry
There was a person there
Who put forth the proposition
That you can petition the Lord with prayer
Petition the lord with prayer
Petition the lord with prayer
You cannot petition the lord with prayer!
Can you give me sanctuary
I must find a place to hide
A place for me to hide
Can you find me soft asylum
I can't make it anymore
The Man is at the door
Peppermint, miniskirts, chocolate candy
Champion sax and a girl named Sandy
There's only four ways to get unraveled
One is to sleep and the other is travel, da da
One is a bandit up in the hills
One is to love your neighbor 'till
His wife gets home
Catacombs
Nursery bones
Winter women
Growing stones
Carrying babies
To the river
Streets and shoes
Avenues
Leather riders
Selling news
The monk bought lunch
Ha ha, he bought a little
Yes, he did
Woo!
This is the best part of the trip
This is the trip, the best part
I really like
What'd he say?
Yeah!
Yeah, right!
Pretty good, huh
Huh!
Yeah, I'm proud to be a part of this number
Successful hills are here to stay
Everything must be this way
Gentle streets where people play
Welcome to the Soft Parade
All our lives we sweat and save
Building for a shallow grave
Must be something else we say
Somehow to defend this place
Everything must be this way
Everything must be this way, yeah
The Soft Parade has now begun
Listen to the engines hum
People out to have some fun
A cobra on my left
Leopard on my right, yeah
The deer woman in a silk dress
Girls with beads around their necks
Kiss the hunter of the green vest
Who has wrestled before
With lions in the night
Out of sight!
The lights are getting brighter
The radio is moaning
Calling to the dogs
There are still a few animals
Left out in the yard
But it's getting harder
To describe sailors
To the underfed
Tropic corridor
Tropic treasure
What got us this far
To this mild equator?
We need someone or something new
Something else to get us through, yeah, c'mon
Callin' on the dogs
Callin' on the dogs
Oh, it's gettin' harder
Callin' on the dogs
Callin' in the dogs
Callin' all the dogs
Callin' on the gods
You gotta meet me
Too late, baby
Slay a few animals
At the crossroads
Too late
All in the yard
But it's gettin' harder
By the crossroads
You gotta meet me
Oh, we're goin', we're goin great
At the edge of town
Tropic corridor
Tropic treasure
Havin' a good time
Got to come along
What got us this far
To this mild equator?
Outskirts of the city
You and I
We need someone new
Somethin' new
Somethin' else to get us through
Better bring your gun
Better bring your gun
Tropic corridor
Tropic treasure
We're gonna ride and have some fun
When all else fails
We can whip the horse's eyes
And make them sleep
And cry
bb