fallingvictim

he is not looking, go for it.
indulge yourself in that little fantisy.
who will it hurt, who will know?
no one no one no one, me?

just this once, i will stop after.
he is not here, so i will do it quick.
maybe he wont know, maybe he will not notice.
i think i should hide just in case.
oh, i hope he does not see what i am about to do.
let's get it over with, just do it.
yes....yes...yes....it is done!
a fun filled five minutes of pleasure takes place.

i glace to my right and there he stands.
i look away and he still remains.
his face with a look of utter dissapiontment.
it is as if i had just killed his first born.
all i can think is, how, why, not me?
i reach out to him and beg him not to leave.
i am your beloved, i call out, please forgive me!
with a look of gratifaction, joy, peace, grace, he answers.
i have forgiven, you are my beloved!