what i have been writing, going through and feeling...
why run when you can push? you won!
Current mood: creative
i wish i could keep writing in some code. in some self-made language that leave's everyone guessing and hoping for some moment of clarity. life is not so, simple truth's are the things that are life. realizing someone's downfall's, what make's them tick, the things they hate, is to often pushed aside.
i find humor in the example that i have a hard time learning from my misstakes. i push for something, i let something happen and it end's with pain. well the same thing has happened again....life was going as i wanted, someone came into the picture and resized my look on life. i did not want this, i knew it would end in nothing but pain and semi-learned lessions.
and just like before, i run. i say to myself, " well, what the fuck, why not". and then i go off back to my old ways of not caring, not being a responsible human being and do whatever or whomever my heart desire's. i do not know if this is some artist curse or that i am just totally inable to have meaningfull relationships.
it all comes down to walking away, learning to wait and never fall into any kind of deep relationship again.
Currently listening :
Pretend You're Alive
By Lovedrug
Release date: 27 July, 2004
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
quantify my luck, she needs a mercy...
Current mood: ecstatic
counting by numbers is always better when their are remanders. 4, 5 therefor 9. 9 and 9 therefor 18. do you understand? you believe that 4 and 5 make 10, welcome to the real world, you are wrong. you can push your legs in a direction meaning greater than but i will not be caught up into your variables. go wonder around look for other theorem's to prove. if you keep telling false statements about your proof's, everyone will find out that you are a hack! so keep on deducting all you want. you will not get the sum out of me.
Currently watching :
The Lost Boys (Two-Disc Special Edition)
Release date: 10 August, 2004
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Friday, July 13, 2007
as it eat's my inside's..
Current mood: contemplative
John McCrea write's a song called "never there" about how i feel.
look it up, it's a good one!
Currently reading :
A Confession and Other Religious Writings (Penguin Classics)
By Leo Tolstoy
Release date: 05 January, 1988
why run when you can push? you won!
Current mood: creative
i wish i could keep writing in some code. in some self-made language that leave's everyone guessing and hoping for some moment of clarity. life is not so, simple truth's are the things that are life. realizing someone's downfall's, what make's them tick, the things they hate, is to often pushed aside.
i find humor in the example that i have a hard time learning from my misstakes. i push for something, i let something happen and it end's with pain. well the same thing has happened again....life was going as i wanted, someone came into the picture and resized my look on life. i did not want this, i knew it would end in nothing but pain and semi-learned lessions.
and just like before, i run. i say to myself, " well, what the fuck, why not". and then i go off back to my old ways of not caring, not being a responsible human being and do whatever or whomever my heart desire's. i do not know if this is some artist curse or that i am just totally inable to have meaningfull relationships.
it all comes down to walking away, learning to wait and never fall into any kind of deep relationship again.
Currently listening :
Pretend You're Alive
By Lovedrug
Release date: 27 July, 2004
1:03 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
quantify my luck, she needs a mercy...
Current mood: ecstatic
counting by numbers is always better when their are remanders. 4, 5 therefor 9. 9 and 9 therefor 18. do you understand? you believe that 4 and 5 make 10, welcome to the real world, you are wrong. you can push your legs in a direction meaning greater than but i will not be caught up into your variables. go wonder around look for other theorem's to prove. if you keep telling false statements about your proof's, everyone will find out that you are a hack! so keep on deducting all you want. you will not get the sum out of me.
Currently watching :
The Lost Boys (Two-Disc Special Edition)
Release date: 10 August, 2004
6:31 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
Friday, July 13, 2007
as it eat's my inside's..
Current mood: contemplative
John McCrea write's a song called "never there" about how i feel.
look it up, it's a good one!
Currently reading :
A Confession and Other Religious Writings (Penguin Classics)
By Leo Tolstoy
Release date: 05 January, 1988
lillithvain:
Thanks for commenting on my rejected set 
lorynashley:
I'm working an 8-5 M-F job. Not terribly exciting, but it pays the bills. I've been rather lazy about sewing lately. I need to get my crap together I've got soo many ideas. Congrats on the sale. When is your line coming out??