as i think about my life and the ambitions and dreams i have for myself i wonder about the things, the obstacles in life that detour us from achieveing the things we desire the most in life.
my big thing is music, of course! my love my passion for art and life is best shown thru music, at least i believe so! my complacency for the work place is void, i do not understand it. the feeling of having the same job for the rest of my life haunts me, scares me!
so in all of these feelings and emotions that i can not quench i start to look at obstacles. for example: this morning on the way to church,(yes i said church. is saying that word here like saying fuck in church?) i hit a patch of ice and hit the guard rail. the whole front end of my car is gone! me being me at brush it off as something that has significance but in no way would cange my visage or inward emotions.
BUT>>>> and this is a very large BUT!!!!
why would this happen to me, of all the times? i am broke, leaving everything behind to follow something i believe in, something that sets my soul at ease and free! and then something like this happens, $500 down the whole, BAM!!!! money i do not have. so to go further, i am not ranting about this because i am finally taking a different turn and things are meaning more to me. NO! i say these things to examine my life and wonder why things happen.
i am doing something that makes my life worth living, in my eyes. why would life throw obsticale after obsticale to try and detour you from your dreams or ambitions? my guess is to make us stronger. if you want something badly enough and fight for it, nothing can stop you. and who better to fullfill the shoes you are appling for than a person who has jumped over every obsticale possible to reach the grand end!
my big thing is music, of course! my love my passion for art and life is best shown thru music, at least i believe so! my complacency for the work place is void, i do not understand it. the feeling of having the same job for the rest of my life haunts me, scares me!
so in all of these feelings and emotions that i can not quench i start to look at obstacles. for example: this morning on the way to church,(yes i said church. is saying that word here like saying fuck in church?) i hit a patch of ice and hit the guard rail. the whole front end of my car is gone! me being me at brush it off as something that has significance but in no way would cange my visage or inward emotions.
BUT>>>> and this is a very large BUT!!!!
why would this happen to me, of all the times? i am broke, leaving everything behind to follow something i believe in, something that sets my soul at ease and free! and then something like this happens, $500 down the whole, BAM!!!! money i do not have. so to go further, i am not ranting about this because i am finally taking a different turn and things are meaning more to me. NO! i say these things to examine my life and wonder why things happen.
i am doing something that makes my life worth living, in my eyes. why would life throw obsticale after obsticale to try and detour you from your dreams or ambitions? my guess is to make us stronger. if you want something badly enough and fight for it, nothing can stop you. and who better to fullfill the shoes you are appling for than a person who has jumped over every obsticale possible to reach the grand end!