Stoned, drunk, and feeling better than I have in years.

Going to the doctor tommorow about continuing my meds and my apparent anemia. I told him I was just being 21.

I'm a pill kid, but I feel so much better. I've never been the pill kid, it's always been my other friends. But now I'm on four different meds, and possibly another depending on...
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Sometimes I think my life is so static and boring and unchanging, but lately that monotony has been punctuated by a couple weird events, or just weird opportunities that are obviously there for me to break out of this cycle of boring shit.


I went to a Zen Center near campus today, hoping to be at their early-morning orientation. They were in the middle of...
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Well, my car got stolen last week. Right out from under my bedroom window. I woke up tuesday morning to go to a training session for work, and it was gone. Yay.


The best part was how my boss called me up, and even after I explained that I had missed the training session on the far side of Phoenix because I had to sit...
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I am not a beautiful and unique snowflake.

Haven't written anything in a while. That's because I'm in a shitty place right now, and when you're in a shitty place, certain things that had an appeal to you on a regular basis somehow get forgotten, and it's not even a conscious thing.


In other news, I'm leaving this country. My university's newspaper did an (another) article that involved some issues with Iraq, and...
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The other day, my girlfriend came over to my house. As she was walking up the driveway, she found a mockingbird on the front porch. She went inside and told me about it, so I came outside.


The bird was lying next to my mom's car, on it's back. I went inside and got a towel, and then picked it up (as gently as possible)...
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I went to my girlfriend's younger sister's 18th birthday party last night.


Correction: I saved the party.


Most of her friends are also 17 or 18, and the few among the group with fake ID's bailed out. So despite the fact that I said I wasn't going to buy them alcohol (mostly because I didn't want to lug a keg around), I ended up being...
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Thanks to everyone who posted on my birthday; I didn't get a chance to reply that night, but I did see them, and that made me smile quite a bit.


I actually ended up having a great time on my birthday. I went to go see The Village with my family (which I thought was a great movie), and then went to my girlfriend's house...
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The Depressing Stuff Update: My car broke down. The repairs are going to cost me $1100. No, I didn't miss a decimal point, it's $1100. So I'm going to pay more for a repair than I would get selling my car by about a hundred bucks. But I don't have the money to buy a new car right now.


My 21st birthday is in less...
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My music choice lately has gone into the realm of "weird and depressing crap." I've pulled out the NIN (including the Johnny Cash cover), the Donnie Darko Soundtrack, some Savatage, Sigur Ros, and even some Dead Can Dance and the ultimately depressing Moby album "18".


Why, you ask? (Or don't. See if I care.)


Because life is fucking depressing.


On a daily basis, I get...
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