Sometimes I think my life is so static and boring and unchanging, but lately that monotony has been punctuated by a couple weird events, or just weird opportunities that are obviously there for me to break out of this cycle of boring shit.
I went to a Zen Center near campus today, hoping to be at their early-morning orientation. They were in the middle of a three-day sesshin though, so the guy told me to come back next weekend. Hopefully I get next weekend off. Just making the effort to get involved is helping me feel a little better though.
The insurance company's going to give me a fair amount of money, now that my car's been stolen for over two weeks now. I wasn't overly sad about the piece of shit going missing in the first place, and this is a good chance for me to go out and get a car that won't be such a stress factor repair-wise. It's also going to help with my attempts at being more social lately, since I finally got sick and fucking tired of moping around my house. I've been able to start hanging out with a lot of my old friends lately, and it's so good to be around people I can talk to and just chill with. Of course I made the decision to go out and be a normal social person again the day before my car gets stolen, but lack of consistant transportation hasn't been a problem.
As far as upcoming stuff, I'm hoping to be able to get tickets to see Bad Religion in November... The Pixies were here twice in the last month, and Deltron (aka Del tha Funky Homosapien, aka the guy who raps with the Gorillaz) was here too, but I missed all of those great shows because of my fucking job. So I am NOT missing Bad Religion, and might also go see Social D if I can afford it. Between all that and buying a new car, I don't know how I'm going to afford the tattoo I've been trying to get for two years now, so I might have to settle with getting an eyebrow ring... it's something I've kinda wanted to do, and right now it's more economically possible than a $200 shoulder piece.
I've been writing a lot in this thing lately, but that's ok. I definitely need an outlet. My level of stress and frustration is way up there; even at the doctor the other day (following up on my depression and ADD shit) they said I had slightly high blood pressure (when I'm usually slightly low), and that I'm probably slightly anemic. So, like all my friends before me, I've become a pill-popper kid. An anti-depressant in the morning, and an anti-anxiety, multi-vitamin with iron, and a sleeping med at night. Ideally this will last about two weeks until I can get in front of a real counselor, and not just medicate my problems away, but for now, it's ok I guess.
So yeah. Hopefully people can put up some witty replies to my post, because my last one (which was equally depression and reply-worthy) didn't get shit. So yeah. Even if you just want to put in a robot face for me, go for it.
PS: I'm in love with new SG Tarrie, but don't tell anyone. It's a secret.
I went to a Zen Center near campus today, hoping to be at their early-morning orientation. They were in the middle of a three-day sesshin though, so the guy told me to come back next weekend. Hopefully I get next weekend off. Just making the effort to get involved is helping me feel a little better though.
The insurance company's going to give me a fair amount of money, now that my car's been stolen for over two weeks now. I wasn't overly sad about the piece of shit going missing in the first place, and this is a good chance for me to go out and get a car that won't be such a stress factor repair-wise. It's also going to help with my attempts at being more social lately, since I finally got sick and fucking tired of moping around my house. I've been able to start hanging out with a lot of my old friends lately, and it's so good to be around people I can talk to and just chill with. Of course I made the decision to go out and be a normal social person again the day before my car gets stolen, but lack of consistant transportation hasn't been a problem.
As far as upcoming stuff, I'm hoping to be able to get tickets to see Bad Religion in November... The Pixies were here twice in the last month, and Deltron (aka Del tha Funky Homosapien, aka the guy who raps with the Gorillaz) was here too, but I missed all of those great shows because of my fucking job. So I am NOT missing Bad Religion, and might also go see Social D if I can afford it. Between all that and buying a new car, I don't know how I'm going to afford the tattoo I've been trying to get for two years now, so I might have to settle with getting an eyebrow ring... it's something I've kinda wanted to do, and right now it's more economically possible than a $200 shoulder piece.
I've been writing a lot in this thing lately, but that's ok. I definitely need an outlet. My level of stress and frustration is way up there; even at the doctor the other day (following up on my depression and ADD shit) they said I had slightly high blood pressure (when I'm usually slightly low), and that I'm probably slightly anemic. So, like all my friends before me, I've become a pill-popper kid. An anti-depressant in the morning, and an anti-anxiety, multi-vitamin with iron, and a sleeping med at night. Ideally this will last about two weeks until I can get in front of a real counselor, and not just medicate my problems away, but for now, it's ok I guess.
So yeah. Hopefully people can put up some witty replies to my post, because my last one (which was equally depression and reply-worthy) didn't get shit. So yeah. Even if you just want to put in a robot face for me, go for it.
PS: I'm in love with new SG Tarrie, but don't tell anyone. It's a secret.