Finally, my phone works again.
I went to donate plasma once so far. then I got sick. I'm afraid if I go again, I'll get sick again. plasma ended up costing me money, I don't want to have that happen... again.
400x6 is 2400... that's probably what my downpayment will be, unless I get some money from Creditors *SHUDDER* I can't live off of 600 a month, I don't know why I thought I could.
I am not really shy anymore. I mean, I know what hoops I have to jump through, and I'm willing to do the jumping. I used to be very shy; or unconfident... basically I didn't think anyone would be attracted to me.
Because no one ever has been. It's funny, lots of people have said I'm funny, smart, charming, adorable, ex cetera.
Actually, I'd be remiss if I said there wasn't ANYONE who liked me; there were three. They were all insane, emotionally damaged, mentally unstable, sexually abused. One of them was 11 when I was 15. One of them had a picture of me (which I didn't give) and made a little shrine on her wall, which was creepy.
I'm not complaining, just recounting. I have accepted the fact that you can't date if you don't ask girls out. it's a pretty novel concept that for most of my life I wasn't allowed to do. I was the foster son to a very conservative minister family. Seriously, every person, the mother, the father, the other blood sons, all were in the ministry at church. It wouldn't have been proper for me to date; that wasn't a "holy" thing to do. I think the theory really was God was supposed to drop my future wife, packaged in saran wrap, on the doorstep of my house "when the time was right". Basically, you are supposed to marry the first person that "God" pointed out. Or, alteratively, you were supposed to "Give up" on finding a mate and "focus on God", and as soon as you did that, you'd get your mate. All total Holier-than-thou bullshit.
Oh, and the stories I could tell about That family I lived with... all for another time, but one thing that I certainly love and respect them for (sarcasm) was their way of punishing me when I "done wrong" was to take away my "music playing priviledges". I wanted to be in a band, play bass, that was my activity. they took it away 3 times for periods of up to 6 months because of things I did (like stay out late). by that I mean, no listening, playing, practicing music. I had to pack up my bass and put it in a closet. and they wonder why I don't call them.
anyways, so right now, I can't date because I don't have any girls to date. my area of influence includes my job, my D&D campaigns every saturday, and both those are sausage fests. I'm also moving, so hitting up bars in bellingham is kind of pointless I reckon. So I'm at a stalemate right now.
Would it be too slimy to say I'd pay someone to find me an interested person?
I went to donate plasma once so far. then I got sick. I'm afraid if I go again, I'll get sick again. plasma ended up costing me money, I don't want to have that happen... again.
400x6 is 2400... that's probably what my downpayment will be, unless I get some money from Creditors *SHUDDER* I can't live off of 600 a month, I don't know why I thought I could.
I am not really shy anymore. I mean, I know what hoops I have to jump through, and I'm willing to do the jumping. I used to be very shy; or unconfident... basically I didn't think anyone would be attracted to me.
Because no one ever has been. It's funny, lots of people have said I'm funny, smart, charming, adorable, ex cetera.
Actually, I'd be remiss if I said there wasn't ANYONE who liked me; there were three. They were all insane, emotionally damaged, mentally unstable, sexually abused. One of them was 11 when I was 15. One of them had a picture of me (which I didn't give) and made a little shrine on her wall, which was creepy.
I'm not complaining, just recounting. I have accepted the fact that you can't date if you don't ask girls out. it's a pretty novel concept that for most of my life I wasn't allowed to do. I was the foster son to a very conservative minister family. Seriously, every person, the mother, the father, the other blood sons, all were in the ministry at church. It wouldn't have been proper for me to date; that wasn't a "holy" thing to do. I think the theory really was God was supposed to drop my future wife, packaged in saran wrap, on the doorstep of my house "when the time was right". Basically, you are supposed to marry the first person that "God" pointed out. Or, alteratively, you were supposed to "Give up" on finding a mate and "focus on God", and as soon as you did that, you'd get your mate. All total Holier-than-thou bullshit.
Oh, and the stories I could tell about That family I lived with... all for another time, but one thing that I certainly love and respect them for (sarcasm) was their way of punishing me when I "done wrong" was to take away my "music playing priviledges". I wanted to be in a band, play bass, that was my activity. they took it away 3 times for periods of up to 6 months because of things I did (like stay out late). by that I mean, no listening, playing, practicing music. I had to pack up my bass and put it in a closet. and they wonder why I don't call them.
anyways, so right now, I can't date because I don't have any girls to date. my area of influence includes my job, my D&D campaigns every saturday, and both those are sausage fests. I'm also moving, so hitting up bars in bellingham is kind of pointless I reckon. So I'm at a stalemate right now.
Would it be too slimy to say I'd pay someone to find me an interested person?
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what are the odds!
Thinking about getting a shirt. which do you think?
Seattle
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[Edited on Mar 11, 2005 4:07AM]