here's a question:
Is it ever ok to kill yourself? like, if you're really depressed or really sick and going to die anyway? I mean, I imagine I'll be really sick someday. I'm also going to eventually die. I'm also depressed.
Here's the bigger question: has anyone ever posted their Suicide note on Suicidegirls.com in their journal? just wrote: "I'm going to kill myself, see ya" and then stepped in front of a bus? Does SG.com check for this kind of thing? would I get a knock on my door from the police department trying to stop me if I said I was offing myself?
I'm really lonely, and very bored. I have to face the fact that this isn't going to change, and that I'm very tired of living like this. I have to own up to my insurmountable mistakes and despite all and any cheery fronts I can put up, I'm not as happy as it looks like everyone else is. I'm envious, but that does me no good. I might as well be dead, I'm not doing anything important and I don't matter to anyone.
only thing that has ever held me back from slitting my wrists or hanging myself is that I don't like pain. Now however, I realize I can take things to relax my mind and dull my senses. suddenly, all my qualms about cutting open the tender flesh of my wrists are distant and hazy.
I already decided I won't kill myself today. Even though my life is and will continue to be just a pointless and annoying nuisance for myself and those around me, it's premature for me to self terminate. I'm planning on doing it at 30 providing that I'm not completed by another.
Still as it stands I have no friends, no prospects, and I'm running out of the ability to look myself in the mirror.
Is it ever ok to kill yourself? like, if you're really depressed or really sick and going to die anyway? I mean, I imagine I'll be really sick someday. I'm also going to eventually die. I'm also depressed.
Here's the bigger question: has anyone ever posted their Suicide note on Suicidegirls.com in their journal? just wrote: "I'm going to kill myself, see ya" and then stepped in front of a bus? Does SG.com check for this kind of thing? would I get a knock on my door from the police department trying to stop me if I said I was offing myself?
I'm really lonely, and very bored. I have to face the fact that this isn't going to change, and that I'm very tired of living like this. I have to own up to my insurmountable mistakes and despite all and any cheery fronts I can put up, I'm not as happy as it looks like everyone else is. I'm envious, but that does me no good. I might as well be dead, I'm not doing anything important and I don't matter to anyone.
only thing that has ever held me back from slitting my wrists or hanging myself is that I don't like pain. Now however, I realize I can take things to relax my mind and dull my senses. suddenly, all my qualms about cutting open the tender flesh of my wrists are distant and hazy.
I already decided I won't kill myself today. Even though my life is and will continue to be just a pointless and annoying nuisance for myself and those around me, it's premature for me to self terminate. I'm planning on doing it at 30 providing that I'm not completed by another.
Still as it stands I have no friends, no prospects, and I'm running out of the ability to look myself in the mirror.
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i hope u dont.
i was close to it one time.
then i didnt.
and im still here.
i hope u'll be okay.
people do care.
tho it may not seem like it.
(ah i hope i remember this advice one day)
*hugs*