Happy Anniversary, Mom. Has it really been 14 years since you passed away?
What Sarah Said
By Death Cab For Cutie
And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That Ive already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me
Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself
Cause theres no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone lift their heads
It's been too long since I've visited you, mom. You're across the country, and you're not going anywhere. I wish you could travel like you used to love. The Tigers are doing really well this year, you would be excited about that. I still think about you. Sometimes you visit me in my dreams and I enjoy those meetings. I wish you didn't look as weak and feeble in my mind as when I saw you last, hooked up to the respirators and IV's; that's such a cruel image to be my final memory of you. I'd rather have that than have nothing though, you were the most important person in my life, and everyone else has been a cheap substitute. No one loved me as freely and truly as you did, and I sometimes feel that my whole life is just a uphill battle to find that love again. Maybe I should have buried that with you.
What Sarah Said
By Death Cab For Cutie
And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That Ive already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me
Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself
Cause theres no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone lift their heads
It's been too long since I've visited you, mom. You're across the country, and you're not going anywhere. I wish you could travel like you used to love. The Tigers are doing really well this year, you would be excited about that. I still think about you. Sometimes you visit me in my dreams and I enjoy those meetings. I wish you didn't look as weak and feeble in my mind as when I saw you last, hooked up to the respirators and IV's; that's such a cruel image to be my final memory of you. I'd rather have that than have nothing though, you were the most important person in my life, and everyone else has been a cheap substitute. No one loved me as freely and truly as you did, and I sometimes feel that my whole life is just a uphill battle to find that love again. Maybe I should have buried that with you.
i'm glad your mom visits you in dreams. that means she's making sure her baby is ok.