fallenshadows

So I am still at a loss, 3 years working on the 4th of marriage after being together for almost 8 years now, my wife has decided to be with someone else. We never fought, we never had an argument over this. Everything in my eyes was just perfect. I knew something was up, yet I was getting, because of her wanting children. Back story, I have never wanted children, she knew this marrying me and I put it on the table for if it is a problem not to marry me. Well here we were discussing how it was affecting her. I knew this wasn't the reason and after some prying found out she is in love with a coworker and has been trying to form a relationship with him. More to the story this has all happened over the course of a month while she switched to graveyard shifts. I haven't been seeing her because shes been sleeping while i'm home and working while i'm sleeping. This has absolutely been destroying my world. The guy in question lives in his car, has a criminal record, and works retail. Maybe I would feel ok about myself if it was some handsome, wealthy individual and I would think I just need to step up my game a bit, but I mean to leave me for bottom of the barrel is just destroying me. I've been alone for a few weeks now and still just confused and lost at what to do. We met up and had a conversation and she seems just absolutely lost and gone from me. Not to mention the absolute loss of trust in me. I'm hurt. I could not have been prepared for this. I have put all my efforts into this relationship, I am even thin on friendships to make sure I never had any doubts or not be able to be there for her for any reason. So lost at what to do. *Sigh*