fallenglory

life just has a way of kicking you while you're down-- right in the ribs until you choke on your coppery blood. right now my sister and nephew are doing the kicking. i don't need this fucking stress in my life. i'm stressed enough with everything falling apart without having them tear at my sanity each and every moment they're here. i find myself snapping at everything because they just won't let up-- ever. i'm not this short-tempered bitch that i am when i'm home. i have so much tolerance it's ridiculous, but they seem to feed off the misery of others to the extent that i want to die. i seriously wish i had the guts to fucking off myself, but i don't anymore. i can't stand this.

all the other shit in my life, i can deal with.. but constant fucking fighting, screaming, whining, bitching-- that is fucking unacceptable. the sound of her voice makes me want to stab my ears with the closest objects i can find. i want to tear my nephew's head off and smash it to the ground like a rotten pumpkin. i'm absolutely losing my mind.

there... i blogged. fucking kill me, please.