fallen1carus

ko.yaa.nis.katsi (from the Hopi language), n. 1. crazy life. 2. life in turmoil. 3. life disintegrating. 4. life out of balance. 5. a state of life that calls for another way of living.

and more than anything right now, i would like meaningful sex and some cream soda.

so things turned out okay with my family... my sister said she wasn't that surprised that i like girls. my mom kinda freaked out, but not cause i'm seeing a girl. just because she's worried about me and wants somebody to treat me good.
duraSUB was right though... feeling in love is the best thing in life... ever.
i'm not sure i'm in love yet,...
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i'm feeling very nervous... things are getting more serious with this girl. so i sent an email to my mom and my sister, letting them know that... hey. i like girls. of course it was explained better than that, but that's the idea. my mom probably won't get the message until tomorrow but i know my sister has gotten it already because i told her...
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i'm feeling very nervous... things are getting more serious with this girl. so i sent an email to my mom and my sister, letting them know that... hey. i like girls. of course it was explained better than that, but that's the idea. my mom probably won't get the message until tomorrow but i know my sister has gotten it already because i told her...
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oookay... feelin good again. oh yeah.

went to the gay bar again last night for stripper night and hung out with the chick who i totally want...
we danced and drank and wrestled! and when she dropped me off we kissed and kissed and it was awesome!!!!!

and then i went in my apartment and passed out. now i am going to try and sleep...
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i'm feeling worn out. i think i need to go out.
not that it's gonna help me feel less worn out physically, but mentally i will feel better...

the happiness of the other day has worn off, since i haven't spoken to or had word from that chick since...

i need my mama.

"oooooow! i feel good! da-na-na-na-na-na-na
i knew that i would yeah..."

i looooove chicago's set.

and the chick i've been crushing over at the gay bar totally wants me!
i got REAL sick last night from so many drinks and she crawled under the stall door in the bathroom and even hung out with me while i puked!
beautiful, smart, caring...

oh jesus she makes...
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i was thinking about a survey i once took for extra
credit in my psychology class. it was supposed to be
anonymous, but i think there were ways to match your
number up... it asked if you had ever had an out of
body experience, or if you ever felt like a part of
your body was not your own, and if you ever chewed...
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finally! i have a phone line, and thus, internet access.
i have missed it very much, and now i must catch up on all of the wonderful porn that i have missed.

women, i am here!

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