i just got back from my grandma's funeral... it was actually a lot better than i expected. everyone seemed to be pretty comfortable with the fact that she was ready to die and was really "in a better place."
all of the religious stuff kinda bothers me though... my whole family. it's like "she's in a better place now, and you better worship our lord...
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all of the religious stuff kinda bothers me though... my whole family. it's like "she's in a better place now, and you better worship our lord...
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ninji:
p.s. this new sepia toned picture of you is completely adorable and lovely.
purge:
thanks and I like your profile pic 
thanks to everybody who left comments in my last entry... i really needed some human contact, and well... sympathy. so thanks.
i'm listening to fiona apple... it brings back these memories.
there was a while in my last year of high school when me and my best friend anne took acid almost every weekend. we're very connected, since that, or because of that. when i...
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i'm listening to fiona apple... it brings back these memories.
there was a while in my last year of high school when me and my best friend anne took acid almost every weekend. we're very connected, since that, or because of that. when i...
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kentavos:
I usually don't write much, but I enjoy listening (reading).
Hope you're doing better.
I had a similar best friend in high school. I really miss those dayz.
Hope you're doing better.
I had a similar best friend in high school. I really miss those dayz.
synnove:
i hope you're doing better too sweetie 
please don't mind if i just freak out here for a while.
my grandma died this morning at 4 am. my mom called this morning and i could tell how hard she was trying to keep from crying while she talked to me. my grandma was old and miserable and i knew she was going to die sometime soon. i didn't think it would bother...
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my grandma died this morning at 4 am. my mom called this morning and i could tell how hard she was trying to keep from crying while she talked to me. my grandma was old and miserable and i knew she was going to die sometime soon. i didn't think it would bother...
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synnove:
aw i'm so sorry hun 
write about it all you like, if that's what helps then do it. *hugs*
write about it all you like, if that's what helps then do it. *hugs*
lilxsin:
I am sooo sry! Big hugz to you. Much love sweety.
see johnny cash cover nine inch nails: It's so cool.
today is filled with apathy.
yesterday's word was:
enmity \EN-mih-tee\, noun:
Hatred; ill will; hostile or unfriendly disposition.
sometimes i feel enmity.
today is filled with apathy.
yesterday's word was:
enmity \EN-mih-tee\, noun:
Hatred; ill will; hostile or unfriendly disposition.
sometimes i feel enmity.
ninji:
i know; the cover es muy bueno.
ack...shadow side. so many of my peeps are goin't hrough a shadow side lately. je ne sais pas pourquoi. loopy times. maybe all we can do is hold each other through it sometimes.
sometimes i feel unworthy. i don't think that's EVERY true. all of us deserve love and nourishment. why i exclude myself from that fact, i cannot say, but it's a habit i need to f'ing break.
big beautiful orb in this picture. alive. awake. aware. caring.
ack...shadow side. so many of my peeps are goin't hrough a shadow side lately. je ne sais pas pourquoi. loopy times. maybe all we can do is hold each other through it sometimes.
sometimes i feel unworthy. i don't think that's EVERY true. all of us deserve love and nourishment. why i exclude myself from that fact, i cannot say, but it's a habit i need to f'ing break.
big beautiful orb in this picture. alive. awake. aware. caring.
muggan_music:
thank you dear for you comments!
*grin*
peas and love,
m_m
*grin*
peas and love,
m_mwhy is it that the people i care about most are the ones who treat me the worst?
it can't be a coincidence.
sometimes something happens and you start to really understand that every person has a story behind their eyes... you only see these flashes, a hello, maybe a fuck you, maybe not even a word, and most of the time it's hard to...
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it can't be a coincidence.
sometimes something happens and you start to really understand that every person has a story behind their eyes... you only see these flashes, a hello, maybe a fuck you, maybe not even a word, and most of the time it's hard to...
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_v_:
i agree i agree i agree
hnece my problem meeting people in this town
i am very honest and up front about me and my silly idiocyncrisies
i make fun of my fualts and such
some people never let down the curtain. it is sad.
so many poor individuals - no sad ones live behind the curtain and forget who they are
some just mask everything and try to compensate for their lack of confidence by replacing it with anus behavior.
fuckin people
ugh
oh hi
hnece my problem meeting people in this town
i am very honest and up front about me and my silly idiocyncrisies
i make fun of my fualts and such
some people never let down the curtain. it is sad.
so many poor individuals - no sad ones live behind the curtain and forget who they are
some just mask everything and try to compensate for their lack of confidence by replacing it with anus behavior.
fuckin people
ugh
oh hi
ghwb01:
I didn't think I said anything rude. I hope you just last the connection.
It would be ironic for someone concerned about people treating them badly (see above) to just close the connection without even modest pleasantries.
It would be ironic for someone concerned about people treating them badly (see above) to just close the connection without even modest pleasantries.
woohoo, synnove is my antivalentine! 
er, maybe
instead. i'm not really sure what being an antivalentine entails.
i should probably keep this link up for now, you might need it:
http://www.notsosoft.com/postcard/
send these to folks like myself who are jaded about valentine's day. i really like the one that says "stop talking about your fucking wedding." reminds me of someone i know...
it is essential...
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er, maybe
instead. i'm not really sure what being an antivalentine entails.
i should probably keep this link up for now, you might need it:
http://www.notsosoft.com/postcard/
send these to folks like myself who are jaded about valentine's day. i really like the one that says "stop talking about your fucking wedding." reminds me of someone i know...
it is essential...
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residue:
for what its worth: i send my valentines wishes to bush
cuz he doesnt has many friends left ...
cuz he doesnt has many friends left ...
zombieshark:
you got yourself a deal missy.
i already have a high maintenance roommate, so it's nothing new to me
uncle jemima's pure mash liqour
"hey, what are you swattin' at?"
leave me alone, i just wanna sell booze
i already have a high maintenance roommate, so it's nothing new to me
uncle jemima's pure mash liqour
"hey, what are you swattin' at?"
leave me alone, i just wanna sell booze
here is a website if you are jaded about valentine's day.
http://www.notsosoft.com/postcard/
it is time for some HARDCORE drinking.
"i look up to the heavens for a ray of hope to shine... and there it is in neon: 'liquor beer and wine.'"
rock on. i'll be at the 'dise on friday, and you should all come by and buy me drinks until i can't see...
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http://www.notsosoft.com/postcard/
it is time for some HARDCORE drinking.
"i look up to the heavens for a ray of hope to shine... and there it is in neon: 'liquor beer and wine.'"
rock on. i'll be at the 'dise on friday, and you should all come by and buy me drinks until i can't see...
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miss_piss:
could you be any cuter?
synnove:
you know, i'm using those cards to send people tomorrow 
and yes you can be my antivalentine
and yes you can be my antivalentine
i dyed my hair dark red. i really like it.
there's bad shit afloat. let's not worry about it for now.
there's bad shit afloat. let's not worry about it for now.
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grrlhavoc:
i like your hair...there is bad shit popping up everywhere...watch out for it
igotawar:
i dyed parts of my hair red today....
/me drinks wine at 2 in the afternoon and pretends not to be an alcoholic.
/me is terribly lonely.
/me clears the slate.
it's time to start all over again.
/me is terribly lonely.
/me clears the slate.
it's time to start all over again.
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pseudo_ghost:
You know what makes me feel better, knowing that there is someone out there who feels worse then I do. Unfortunately for me there is no one, so hey smile your one up on me you have wine. Well two up you also have purdy hair. If things get really bad just think to yourself hey at least Im not that guy.
your one up on me you have wine. Well two up you also have purdy hair. If things get really bad just think to yourself hey at least Im not that guy.
radd:
You need to get out with some friends and have some fun, well, at least that's what I like to do when I'm feeling like you seem to be feeling.
sonofaBITCH!!!
why does it happen that all sorts of bad things all have to compile at once?
so my ex gf (who i'm still seeing in a very disconnected sense) emails me the other day all excited but she wouldn't tell me why. so i guessed it-- she got laid.
now it's not that i care about that. she's been looking for some "deep dicking"...
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why does it happen that all sorts of bad things all have to compile at once?
so my ex gf (who i'm still seeing in a very disconnected sense) emails me the other day all excited but she wouldn't tell me why. so i guessed it-- she got laid.
now it's not that i care about that. she's been looking for some "deep dicking"...
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kentavos:
Wow. And I though I had bad luck... It sounds to me like you could find someone a lot better out there. Don't give up!
radd:
I'm looking for a cute firl in the area to have fun with tonight. Interested? Ugly's no problem, I have alcohol. I'm also very desperate and willing to settle for whatever I can get. Umm, I don't have a car, but I can spot taxi money. Well part of it anyways. If you bring some cash we can maybe get a pizza. Oh that? That's my roomate? Er...why does he have a camera? That's a very good question. Where is this post going? Another good question. Who am I talking to? Who are you people?!! Where am I!?!? What am I doing here?!!? OHMYGODITBURNS! YAY!
I really should go to sleep.
I really should go to sleep.
today has not been a very good day. if anybody wants to send some lovin' my way, i could use it.
[edit to include an excerpt from the PERFECT song for the day, which you should definitely hear, cause it's beautiful. PJ Harvery: Is That All There Is?]
...
And then I fell in love
With the most wonderful boy in the world
We'd take...
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[edit to include an excerpt from the PERFECT song for the day, which you should definitely hear, cause it's beautiful. PJ Harvery: Is That All There Is?]
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And then I fell in love
With the most wonderful boy in the world
We'd take...
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radd:
Well, the weekend's almost here so hopefully things will pick up for you. Say, did you dye your hair black at any point? I was at the grocery store a weekend or two ago, sitting half asleep in the car while my roomate got some supplies, and I saw a girl walk by that I thought looked like you with black hair. Just a weird little thing I thought I'd mention because I'm still half asleep and tend to ramble when I am.
amina:
cheer up lady, you got purple hair, thats something to be happy about.
a word to the wise... never, ever flush a pound of rice down the toilet. you're just asking for trouble.
*sigh*
it takes a special kind of person to be me.
*sigh*
it takes a special kind of person to be me.
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kentavos:
Hmmm......that's some bowl of rice. ;-)
residue:
special indeed ...
heh heh
heh heh