Fighting the urge to get back with my ex...
It always ends badly. Feeling I'm fighting a one-sided battle with no alies fighting for the relationship with me, doesn't seem to hold the same rush of challenge for me any more. I also always seem to find the women that want to box... don't get me wrong, I'm a big guy, and I can take a punch and keep my anger in check enough not to want to strike back, but even if there's little pain, it still gets annoying. Then there's the, if it didn't work out the first time (or the fifth), odds are it's not worth the effort. Glutton for punishment, victum of circumstance, etc... I think I might be at a point in my life where the thrill of the hunt and the challenge of attaining the un-attainable just isn't worth the effort.
From my experience, no relationship is perfect, combined with the facts that I'm just not really good at relationships (not through lack of effort), and that I tend to put the logical over the emotional, I already have three strikes againts me.
But the one night stands and relationships that have no basis to grow into something more meaningfull are likewise, I think, a thing of my past.
So that leaves me... jaded? confused? doomed to fail? Oddly enough, some part of me thinks that these things should bother me more then they do...
It always ends badly. Feeling I'm fighting a one-sided battle with no alies fighting for the relationship with me, doesn't seem to hold the same rush of challenge for me any more. I also always seem to find the women that want to box... don't get me wrong, I'm a big guy, and I can take a punch and keep my anger in check enough not to want to strike back, but even if there's little pain, it still gets annoying. Then there's the, if it didn't work out the first time (or the fifth), odds are it's not worth the effort. Glutton for punishment, victum of circumstance, etc... I think I might be at a point in my life where the thrill of the hunt and the challenge of attaining the un-attainable just isn't worth the effort.
From my experience, no relationship is perfect, combined with the facts that I'm just not really good at relationships (not through lack of effort), and that I tend to put the logical over the emotional, I already have three strikes againts me.
But the one night stands and relationships that have no basis to grow into something more meaningfull are likewise, I think, a thing of my past.
So that leaves me... jaded? confused? doomed to fail? Oddly enough, some part of me thinks that these things should bother me more then they do...