fairie

Wow, so I was reading all my old posts and can't believe how much things have really changed in the last 3 years. I went through so many different phases and having so many different goals. At least the one thing that has not changed is my relationship with Nick. It may not be as exciting and carefree as it used to be but we still love eachother immensiley and have a beautiful son to show for it. Right now I'm at a point in my life where I'm stuck in a rut. I hate my job but I'm not ready to try something new....but yet I am. I've been thinking of switching to a different department but I don't know how my pay will change and at least now I have guaranteed hours so I always know what my paycheck will be. I've also been thinking a lot about going to beauty school but I just don't know how I'm gonna find the time. I guess it's just time to sit down with Nick and just talk about all the thoughts running through my head and re-evaluate my life's plan. Ugh, I hate growing up. It's so damn stressful. There are days when I just wish I were 14 again and didn't have to worry about work or bills or family. I really wish I would have taken more advantage of those good times and really enjoyed them and not take them for granted. But all I can do is just learn from my experiences and pass them along to my son and hopefully when he gets older he won't be as stubborn as me. Well, I'm gonna go read a little and then go to bed. I have a full day of shopping ahead of me tomorrow....

You know you love me.....