Hey,
Sleep: Even though it has been quite some time now, sometimes it's still hard knowing--that when the time comes for me to try and get some sleep--I'm going to be sleeping alone. Sometimes this empty bed really gets to me. Sometimes, if I feel I've been at home too much, I notice all the 'absence' surrounding my life. Sometimes I just feel like I really need someone to lie with me and stroke the hair back from my forehead and gently rub my back, soothe me and snuggle me as I try and fall asleep. My anxiety and depression is worse when I notice how alone I am. I wouldn't necessarily say I'm worse when I'm alone--but when I NOTICE how alone I am is when panic can set in. Also; my sleeping habits have been worse than usual this past week--may need to try and rectify this.
Hair: Got bored and frustrated with my overall general appearance again (this is happening more and more frequently of late... maybe I REALLY AM very dissatisfied with myself/my life) and so today I went even crazier with my hair. Now; not only is it blonde, turquoise and pink; I've added purple to the mix... I'll try to remember to take a photo tomorrow so I can upload it.
Tattoo: Getting some new tattoo work started this coming Thursday. I've been itching for some new ink (for fucking ages!) so this'll be sweet!
Canada: I want to get a passport and travel. I've never been out of Australia--hell, I've only travelled interstate once in my life so far--and now that I'm single and all the plans I'd created with my ex for 'the future' are no longer viable, I've decided that I really do need to go and travel. I need to go and just lose myself somewhere and learn and experience life outside of my own. I have always wanted to go to England and visit Stonehenge, but I would also love to visit Canada and meet up with @alesandra_ while I'm there. I could do the whole back-packing thing around hostels and meet people and just do my own thing. I dunno, it's just an idea in my head right now (money would be a serious issue for me) but maybe one day.
Throwback photos--taken a couple of weeks back.
Anyway, might try and get some shuteye (1:25am).
Lots of love, Faeviel xxx
