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I've been feeling very blah lately. I don't know why- I mean I have my ideas, I hardly ever work, I am starting to feel blah about my job, I'm broke, I spend a lot of time at home. I am fat and I hate it. I just don't feel like myself any more. I've been diagnosed with having depression in the past, but I haven't taken any meds or anything for about 3 almost 4 years. I find myself wondering what the point of my existence is. I mean really- what have I done with my life? Nothing. I like my life, but I look at my friends and how accomplished they are, and how they know what they want out of life and they actually do something to go about that goal. I have no idea what I want out of life, and I'm almost 30. There has to be more to life than partying, working at a retail store and sitting at home playing games online.
Pathetic. Really.
I've been feeling very blah lately. I don't know why- I mean I have my ideas, I hardly ever work, I am starting to feel blah about my job, I'm broke, I spend a lot of time at home. I am fat and I hate it. I just don't feel like myself any more. I've been diagnosed with having depression in the past, but I haven't taken any meds or anything for about 3 almost 4 years. I find myself wondering what the point of my existence is. I mean really- what have I done with my life? Nothing. I like my life, but I look at my friends and how accomplished they are, and how they know what they want out of life and they actually do something to go about that goal. I have no idea what I want out of life, and I'm almost 30. There has to be more to life than partying, working at a retail store and sitting at home playing games online.
Pathetic. Really.
You're not the only one to feel the way you do. I hate my job! I've gained 20lbs since I started working inside, I have no sence of accomplishment in my work, it's boring, and I have no fun unless I'm doing something I'm not supposed to be doing. There is no way for me to advance unless I go towards management... fuck that! And I can't quit because there is no way I can find another job that pays what they do along with benefits. So I'm stuck.
I've been thinking about starting my own business. Doing some sort of remodeling/tiling or the like. I seem to be pretty ok at that. So Maybe I'll start that as a side job come spring, but then I'll have to get a contractors license and such. I haven't really looked into that yet so I'm not sure what it all entails. We'll see.
Just know that you're not alone. No matter what things look on the outside there is most likely always something not right on the inside.
If you're pissed about your weight, cut down on beer and fatty/sugary foods and exercise at least 20 min a day. Shit, you can come over and I'll teach you pole dancing. It's fucking exhausting, and probably the only reason I've stayed in any sort of shape these last three years.