faeryrae

i hate feeling sick. My throat hurts and i have a headache. Also I hate when guys dont call when they say they do but they dont. this one guy i been talking to who lives near me started talking to me online and says he is totally into me but he never calls. He says he is too busy. I dont know. I shouldnt get my hopes up I guess. I mean i was going to only be friends with him and then see. But i love my kungfukender so its no big lost. though it would be nice to have someone to go hang out with. i saw my ex today and he wont leave me alone. he tried to kiss and everything. it was bad. well my brother is home but its like no big deal since he is gone all the time and my family is like worshiping him. it is really scary. and i am of course invisable. use to it though,,,, damn i am such a downer! grrrr...... maybe i should just give up on the whole love and relationship thing. maybe i just feel lonely since i am not in a relationship. ah well stupid feelings. i thought of just going out and having fun with sex or whatever but i dont think that is me. ah well. whatever just rambling as always