faelyn

I am so sick of working lately. The salon is pissing me off. So I work for this guy who is opening a new salon, but it was supposed to open in June, now its looking more like September. We have a deal where, until the new place is open I get to work rent free for two days a week in exchange for writting his employee handbook and comming to the new salon when it opens. Well, since its taking forever to open I've now been bugged by this guy to make more diagrams and drawings, but I wrote his handbook, and I was looking forward to being off the hook, but it seems like its never enough for him. I'm sick of working there, Im sick of him and I'm sick of his idiotic assistant that I'm supposed to train. She doesn't listen to a damn thing I say so training her is not going well. And I don't know if I really want to be going to this new salon where I'll only be making a small percentage of my profits. I hadly make any money as it is! And I dont think any of my bosses clients will like me since I dont do mullet variations and that seems to be all that he does for these stuck in the eighties women. Its embarassing to see some of them leave, do they know they have mullets? I feel really frustrated, hair used to be fun, then I tried to do it for a living and now I hate it most of the time. Sure most of my clients are my friends, but I dont know that I even want a huge clientelle. Can I really care about that many people? Can I do hair for 9 hours a day five days a week and not go crazy? I'm not so sure. Problem is the job I like, only pays 9 an hour, the other job I would like, but the manager is a pain in the ass and I can't get reliable hours or enough of them. For those of you in college who are still taught that if you work hard you'll get a good job after you graduate, well thats not necessarily true. I think I should have waited to go to college, taken a year off or so, I don't think I learned nearly enough and the longer Im out the less I remember. its quite depressing. Ive been out of school for three years now and I still dont have a full time job, let alone a career, I certainly dont have benefits or a retirement plan and its not looking like thats going to change. So what do I do? Well, I dont know, i just want to be happy and feel like Im good at what I do and that its a respectable career and that i can build a future from it, like buying a house or a car. But latley Im just glad I have enough money to buy dinner. im going on vacation soon, thank freeking goodness. I really need to get out of here for a little while. Im tired of santa cruz I dont feel like this town is doing me any good anymore. My boyfriend is trying to transfer from community college to a uc school, but its not looking great so Im keeping my fingers crossed. Maybe vacation will be better.