faelyn

So I finally got a newer picture, but its not a very good one, I think I kinda look like an alien. Oh well, yeah... I'm bored, its cold and windy outside and I don't know what to do with myself. I think I need to make some friends or something. I'm looking for female friends, (sorry gentlemen, I'm not interested). If anyone in the Santa Cruz area feels like going out dancing downtown sometime (not Tuesdays, some Wednesdays, Fridays and Saturdays because I work, unless you don't want to go out til after 12:20 or so) I'd rather like to, but I don't really want to go by my self and my boyfriend wont go with me. I like Goth Night at Dekota, and Wednesdays are fun there too, but I'm flexable. I wonder if anyone reads this? I guess I'll find out. Either way, its fun to type. Anyway, so yeah, the most exciting thing to happen to me lately is that I got two new sweatshirts, cozy, Im always cold, my hands are freezing right now. I'm sad lately because I never see my boyfriend because I work nights, he works days, and even when we do spend time together, it just feels like we're roommates, not lovers. I love him very much, its that old, I love you but I don't know if I'm in love with you thing...and I know he feels it too, I'm confused and don't know what to do, I guess I'm waiting to see what happens. Well I guess I should think of something fun to do, but I can't think of anything, I don't know what to paint and I have so many half started paintings that I don't know what to do with either. Perhaps I need a new hobby...