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So I broke up with Josh.

Our power was out for nearly two days because he didn't pay the power bill for three months, months where I gave him money for the power bill and where he told me he had paid it.

I don't really want a whole lot of people prodding me with questions about this, about what I'm going to do, I really don't know what I'm going to do. I'll figure it out. This also isn't a cry for advice, because I'd rather not have it. I've noticed that when I take peoples advice, the worst stuff happens, and when I listen to peoples advice, I usually overreact or don't react enough. I think I'm kinda done with advice in general.

I am very frustrated with the whole situation. I wanted to be with him, really. But I can't put myself in the position to be with someone so incredibly financially irresponsible. Who refuses to learn from his mistakes, he keeps making them over and over and over again, and I just don't know what to do with it. I'm angry at him, for being so stupid and for putting me in the position to break up with him over his idiotic choices.

I'm not going to do what I did with Jordan. I refuse to handle all of the money just so I know it's done and I will not act like his mother and give him an allowance to make sure he doesn't overspend. I know not all men are like this, they can't be, but my god, every man I've ever met has been completely fucking retarded when it comes to money.


*sigh* I really thought this one was different. Nine months down the drain.