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Mardy found out that she has cancer.

Yet another one. This really freaks me out.

His grandma died of brain cancer, his mother of lung cancer. His aunt Jenny has cancer in her foot, and now Mardy.

It doesn't seem like his uncle Jeff or Tony have anything like cancer... so maybe it's the women in the family, and not the men. Man, I really hope for that.

With how his mother died, I know that he'd never want to go to a doctor to be checked out. They misdiagnosed her for over a year, saying she had fucking pneumonia, when she had cancer all along. By the time they realized it, she only had a month left to live. She didn't even fight it, she just let it take her.

I worry for him. I love him - and I don't want him to be taken from me. Not like that. He doesn't talk about it often, but he's told me about how much pain she was in before she died. I couldn't stand for that to happen to him.


And I know I'm not helping anything by smoking. I generally smoke outside when he's home, but, sometimes I get comfortable and don't want to go outside, or the weather is just too fucked up. I know it's not good for either one of us.

Sorry, just had to rant a little.