distance what i can i say about it these days it seems like no matter what i do everything is so far away lately because of my decision to become a commercial scuba diver and lately that is not overly working out for me really but maybe i should deal with the distance thing first.
Distance is now become a way of life for me lately i do not hold anything / one close or dear i guess you could say everything has become a matter screen messages and a phone that never rings . I have become a lonely traveller who has been sucked into a world of work that is all consuming and is slowly helping me become more self reliant on myself and not even trying to make a attempt at trying to meet new people in a new areas i have been living for work. I have no motivation to go out and socialize when i am finished work most days i just feel like i want to pass out and sleep since i am so over worked and havent had a decent day off in a couple months. When i got into this is wanted to be able to have the time to enjoy the things i truly enjoyed doing like being outdoors and getting back into drawing and painting but it just seems i am not getting at all just in the same void position i was living when i was working multiple jobs in Alberta before my surgery happened about a year ago. I was really hoping that this new position and work would of changed my circumstances of everything but lately it seems nothing has changed, maybe i am missing something from the bigger picture in all this i do not really know.
I guess i did that backwards no matter but when i comes to distance everything is a stretch driving hours to get to next dive job , family living hours away and the few people that seldomly talk to me are on in entirely different provinces or in a different country all together.
