seems like all i do on this site is look and thats about it i don't really speak or add anything to any conversation that is happening it seems to mirror my real life exactly which i think is a problem but at this point i honestly have no idea what the hell to do. When i think of it ever since i got sick a week ago it has been hard to push myself and exceed my limits i have stopped going to the gym, longboarding and even walking along the sea walk in front of my place on a daily basis even it is like i don't want to be seen. Lately all i hear from people is once i am done my diving classes and am making good money it'll all work itself out when i find "the perfect girl" which makes no sense to me at all in the slightest, i understand it has been at least 3 years now since i have even really gotten close to anyone on any level during this time, but i don't see how my whole world can change by one person.....maybe people see something that i am blind too when it comes to these things, hell i don't know it is what it is.
