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I'm going to tell him.

I can't let him go back over without knowing how I feel.

And I can't wait until right before the deployment and have it on my mind the whole time before then.

And whatever his reaction is, I don't want it to still be happening when he needs to be surviving. If that makes sense.

So yeah.

I'm terrified.
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s_eldorado:
Fuck. Good luck with that!

Hope you're ok. Your new profile pic is extra yummy btw

xo
bugbue:
Live it to the fullest. No regrets. No fear. Easy to say and hard to feel but what can you do when the chance is gone and all is said and done.
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It's fucking hard to tell someone that you're in love with him.

Especially when he's stationed six hours away (driving the legal speed limit. Fuck the W. KY Pkwy!)

And he has to leave every other year to go to that fucking litterbox.

Sorry that my past 2304872 entries have been about Matt, but I'm trying to work out all this shit. I've never been...
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bugbue:
Love, love, love. Do what feels right.

Looking at UO huh? There are a wide range of people in Eugene. I think you'd like it. Besides the left coast kicks ass anyway.
kutthroatkitch:
No regrets...Tell him and that's that!
I was in an early relationship (6months) and I got a short-notice deployment for the desert too. It was a terrible feeling to leave and be appart....it was also very stressfull, but we kept in touch everyday and she kept my spirits up by having someone to look forward to see when I returned home. But then again, we Air Force guys only have four-month rotations which isn't that bad...very short compared to the ARMY.
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Um, yeah. . . I just got home at 3:30. Matt decided he was going to keep me an extra night.

Not as much sex as I had planned. But the weekend was amazing.

Amazing.

I keep feeling like I left something down at Ft. Campbell. . .

Oh. Yeah.

<3

I got down there Friday around 7, we spent the evening just hanging out....
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makebelieve:
so thats weird, Ft. Campbell...same damn situation, it's getting eerie how similar our situations are!!
if only i'd been able to go out there this weekend, I'd probably have seen you at the theatre (since there is only one) cuz my "friend" wanted to see that movie as well.

sure he saw it without me though. Great town that Clarksville! I seriously know it better than my own town, I practically lived there when I was unemployed smile.

Glad you had a great weekend! Maybe your boy knows my boys!
devilsreject:
that was warming just to read.....lucky....hope things work out for you two!
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My god it's a gorgeous day. Wow. I slept in and skipped the gym since I'll probably get a good workout of one kind or another later today. I didn't want to be sleepy at any point of my impending 6 hour drive.

I need to go pack and get ready for a weekend of. . . That thing I've been planning wink

RIght now, our...
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holagatita:
I hope your weekend was everything you dreamed and more!!! smile

That's one sexy look you're sportin' in the above photo! love
kingskottie:
well? how was the movie?
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acidevangelist:
1. yes
2. no
3. no
4. i suppose
5. sure
tex13:
1. Yes
2. Yes, I've seen one.
3. No
4. Yes, never seen one but my dad and best friend have. I'm sure we are not alone on the universe.
5. Maybe to travel around.
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phunkybrewster:
I love that pic! Do you do yoga?
1_dying_wish:
just checked out your psw set.. very hot, you should be an sg
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el_roacho_grande:
hmmmm
and here I am ranting about the elevator in my apartment building being broken.

I agree the world is a fucked up place. It always has been though.

1. Ricky Schroder.

2. probably not. i've done the whole farm thing before... it's not for me.

3. potatoes

4. well if you had your farm in oregon a big cash crop of theirs however illegal would be marijuana also the above mentioned mushrooms. seriously though carrots, beans, potatos, all that good stuff... do it organically of course and then hike up the price and sell them to yuppies back in ohio.

5. ew ew that smell!
tex13:
Well said, its all sad but true.

1. I've always wanted a husky named Nanuk.

2. Yes, I was raised in the country. We had our little garden and raised animals, so I could actually be helpful.

3. Potatoes

4. Okra, squash, carrots and potatoes

5. On the farm it would be shit, watch your step. tongue
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girlysound:
I absolutely love Cixous!!! Laugh of the Medusa is a great read that bring sup some really interesting idea's. I have a small obsession with fem philosophy. What class are you writing it for? Sorry to hear about the set but hey it sounds like it worked out! Since I'm commenting on your page I feel like I should answer your questions so here it goes!

1. HA! I have a vibrator that is soooo on the brink of dying. Keep in mind that this thing is probably worth more melted down then as a vibrator. It makes weird noises now and stops randomly (can we say frustrating) but we have had some good times and I haven't broken her out in awhile so, yeah i need a new one.
2. it changes daily. but i love my rianbow scarf
3.I broke my middle finger
4.it's a tie. mel. she lives in columbus and i saw her last night and my boy
5.yes. she freaks if i don't talk to her at least eveyr other day.
holagatita:
wow, I'm off SG a week and you already shot your set and had it rejected?! Was that the set you were just talking about shooting a couple of weeks ago?! Or is there another set in the works?
It's a great set by the way, I don't know why it was rejected!!
And the profile pic of you in your bra & undies is just YUM!

1. What sex toys do you have/have you had? I have a vibrator but I don't use it very often, I prefer my own hand and a dvd smile, I use to have some other butterfly thing, but I don't know what happened to it.
2. What's your absolutely fav item of clothing? I have a pair of jeans that I'm quite fond of, and some t-shirts I wouldn't want to part with.
3. Had any broken bones? yes, nose (car accident), wrist (skateboard accident), clavicle (car accident)
4. Who is your best friend? WHy? I'm lucky enough to have 2 best friends. My friend Margaret is my oldest and dearest friend (I've known her since I was 10), I love her because she's an awesome person and because we have so much in common and such similar tastes, plus so many great memories. And SurlyMike I have only known for a little less than 4 years, but he is one of the best friends I'll ever have. He always makes me laugh and I have so much fun with him, and from the moment I met him, I felt comfortable and happy to be around him. Plus he's a travel nut like me, I'm so happy we travel well together!
5. Have you called your mother this week? yes

I just got a yoga dvd from Netflix, it's called "Crunch: Candlelight Yoga" with Sara Ivanhoe. I'm going to try a couple and see which one I like then hopefully buy one. Let me know what you end up with and if you like it.
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Holy crap is it a nice day!

I just took a stats exam. Yucky. It wasn't that bad, though, I thought. And I had heard that this one was supposed to be killer. I even missed two lectures for the material covered. Maybe I'm just getting back to my old brain-setting. My writing is becoming a little more coherant and intelligent too. As I said...
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titanae:
Nothing like a great day outside to boost your appreciation of Herr Gauss and his probability distribution function. To speak nothing of improving your wordsmithing.

SG is indeed a fun playground... specially Smutty Stories. I love hearing fantasies of dominant women. wink
makebelieve:
uh you don't have to explain your complicated relationship to me because I'm in the exact same one. With an Army guy. I saw you in the IBT group and now I read your blog, so yeah. Everything you said about your relationship with Matt is EXACTLY how my life is going. WEIRD! So it is good to know there is someone else out there going through the exact same thing I am. Confusing and complicated. I was supposed to go out to see him this weekend but he had to work frown. SO hard!

If you need someone who can relate, it's me.
And I am so buying Borat on Tuesday.
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Bummer, y'all. They don't want my set.

And I'm over it.

I ended up being in a really good mood all night after reading my rejection letter. (I got the form letter this time. Last time they were so much sweeter and told me to resend as soon as I had anything. I still got another year for free. haha)

You can check out the...
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punknitemike:
its a bummer but im sure there will be a next time, right? and your pictures look absolutely fabulous, did they say why they didn't accept the set?

p.s. can i add u?
flyer:
i think your set is fantastic. shame on them for rejecting it. killer smile. best wishes.